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Instead of contemplating, just jump into it !

2010-04-01T18:02:00.000-07:00

Pictures on magdeline's birthday with all sisters :) HAH!

That day was really happy for all of us as all sisters excluding those who were inside, all came out & met up with us :) I believe our bonding will start to get back closer yeah ? I know i had seldom met up with you girls also until these few weeks. I guess i had told some of you girls that i'd some family problems needed to be solved & settled down first. && After magdeline's birthday celebration, she and i accompanied x.baby headed back to her house as we all wanted to have some Heart-Heart talk :) HAH ! Ended up we hear 1 particular song titled "An Jing", i & x.baby began to cried. Its a song that reminds us of sipei. We all seriously do miss her alot :( I miss her, x.bee & ehkia coming to my house & stayed overnight. I miss all those fun we used to had with all other sisters :( Sigh. && Btw, I do agree with what magdeline had wrote in her blog post. Our last time bonding was much stronger when all sisters havent go in yet.I somehow do miss the past. Like those stupid acts we all did together & those laughter we used to had. Now, some had left us & some act as if they dont wanna to care about this sisterhood anymore. I remembered when i first joined sisterhood, there were really lots of sisters. As times goes by, i'd already joined sisterhood for 2year plus going to 3 three years. Its not a long period & neither is it a short period. But within these 2year plus, quite a number of unhappy things had happened. Like for example, sisters going in and some sisters had left us 1 by 1. Now sisterhood are left with x.baby, magdeline, fiona, joy, nana, jovin, bobo, x.bee, sipei, ekhia & me. But X.bee, Sipei & Ehkia is inside now and we're all waiting for them to be out. &&& I also do believe that no matter what things had happened, we sisters is gonna pull through it altogether. Also, I must really say a big thankful to my dearest sister, x.baby for trying her best to salvage this sisterhood because without her trying her very best salvaging this sisterhood, I believe our bonds right now will not be as close anymore and this sisterhood will turn out much more worst than now. Some sisters had changed somehow & i admit saying i'd changed somehow too due to me having much family problems recently, but after what x.baby had told me about her feelings about this sisterhood, i started to put myself in her shoes & think and she also began to understand my situation too after i had told her about my family stuffs. Therefore, now no matter what, when i'm free, i'll find time to meet up with them so as to let all my sisters know that each and everyone of your do matters to me. And also despite x.baby having probation & many things to be troubled with, she had never once given up on us. She always made us felt like we stands an important place in her heart. Thanks sister :) Loveyouallgirls !

Facing reality.

2010-03-20T08:37:00.000-07:00

HAHA ! Pictures of the day with my sisters :)
Today woke up at 8.30am. Wash up & then went to cook the ingredients for the chiken porridge as baby sis had cravings for my porridge :) Aftermath, when the porridge is cooked at about 11 plus, went to prepare & then deliver the porridge to her house :) Reached her house, and had a great heart-to-heart talk with her ! After eating the porridge, headed down to fiona sis's house at bedok. Joy sis & fiona's boyfriend (Bernard) were at there too :) Not long after, Bobo sis & meiling came too ! HAHA. && we headed down to bugis. Accompanied meiling to eat & magdeline sis came within a short while ! Walk-ed around at bugis street & headed to fusion to play pool. I finally saw brotherhood people ah ! :) Its been like ages since i last seen them as i seldom go down to bugis already oh-gosh! Aftermath, train-ed back to baby sis's house with magdeline sis :) Had so much to talked about as i seldom meet up with them ! :) &&&&& HOME SWEET HOME AT ABOUT 10.50PM ! :DDDD Next week is magdeline sis's birthday & we'd roughly planned on what to do & where to go! HAHAHAHAHAHA :) Looking forward to next saturday lahdey. I miss my sisters alt,i swear !!! :) Gees, had a great enjoyable day with them today :) Loveyougirls.

Facing reality.

2010-03-18T07:26:00.001-07:00

DEDICATED TO MY SISTER: FELICIA THAM MUN YEE :)
Best Friends, The title we chose. But what does it mean to be “best friends”? You should see each other every day? Well that’s not true for you and me. Should silly little fights get in our way? Only if that’s how it’s meant to be. Should we give? Should we borrow? Should we dance like there’s not tomorrow? Secrets are traded. Privacy invaded. Hugs and smiles are shared. Tears are shed. Love is spread. We know that we both really cared. I smile, you smile. You cry, I cry. I wish, you wish. You die, I die. If you fall, I'll help you up. And if you call, I'll always pick up. Sisters forever, the promise we made. And I know in my heart, that it will never fade. Words could never tell you how important you'll always be. Just little things that you do, that are especially meant for me. You always seem to remember all the things to do, that makes sister-ship last forever &&& share a bond so true. You were a shelter from life’s frequent storm. Like a comfortable blanket, you kept me snug, safe and warm. You were a light in the window, when everything’s dark. You were a trip to the circus, a picnic in the park. Like a bright, sunny summer, you were joy without end. And I’m so very privileged to call you my sister. When tears fell from my eyes, you were there to brush them away. When I was lost in confusion, you were there to say that everything would be okay. When I stood before you falling apart,you were there to lend your heart.When I felt like no one could understand, you were there to take my hand. When no one else was left to care, you were there. Thanks sister. Even though we may not be sisters by birth, but somewhere deep within me, I felt that I’d known you forever. You’re my true sister, FOREVER. You’re my angelic sister, Held close to my heart. We were friends by god’s choice, but sisters by our own :) Sister, after all those misunderstandings, i believe that our sister-ship bonding will be closer. Time flies, we'd been sisters for 2plus years already. However, thats not enough :D I want it forever & i believe we can make it possible isnt it ? HAH ! Had a great chat with you just now. See you on saturday with your porridge delivered to your house :D HEHE !

Haha, met kailee at tpy & we headed down to bedok to meet up with marilyn & jingyi. GOSH ! Marilyn's house is a place for us to cam-whore & danced ! HAHA. Aftermath, went to eat chicken rice & i headed home while marilyn & jingyi went for club & kailee went off to meet her friends :D Thats all for today. HAH! More pictures will be upload due to some reasons :D ^^

Instead of contemplating, just jump into it !

2010-03-11T22:05:00.000-08:00

HAHA, YEAH ! I FINALLY GOT MY 32GB I-TOUCH :) Laughs !

Confused.

2010-02-27T04:03:00.000-08:00

Here to upload a few picture only :)

MY NEW PHONE :) N97mini !

Agony is gonna be over i guess :D

2010-02-15T20:49:00.000-08:00

Here to upload pictures thats all yeah :D && I guess my agony is gonna soon be over! I no longer feel so disoriented :) &&& I WISHES EVERYONE A BELATED HAPPY NEW YEAR & VALENTINE DAY {{: Did you guys enjoy your new year ? Hah ! Well, i've enjoyed mine this year :)) Takecare peeps !

I'm contented :D

2010-02-14T18:59:00.000-08:00

Here to upload pictures thats all yeah :D Haha, lazy to blog. Perhaps next few days i'll then update my blog again ! Btw this year i'm finally not celebrating valentine's day alone laughs:)

2010-02-07T07:37:00.000-08:00

Real loss only occurs when you lose something you love more than yourself. Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do. The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else. Love is like heaven but it can hurt like hell at the same time.

To someone whom i really care:
Don't talk anymore my love. Just look at me, and you will understand how I feel. Look deep in my eyes, and you'll see your name, my soul's broken mirror. I love you more than you believe, like you are my life, my other half, my subconscious guardian angel. Look around you, has anyone loved you more than I do? Never cry my love, cause you'll make me bleed. Always be happy, cause your smile is a source of life for me. I breathe when you breathe. I'm sorry for my feelings. I know they drown you, they don't set you free. Come and tell me you hate me & that there's no other chance, no fake hope. Don't show me, but tell me. And then I will leave. I swear I will leave you, my endless pain. It's not your fault, I can't blame you for anything as it's me who loves you. Tell me your truth,and you'll never see your name in my eyes again, cause I'll keep our past and my love in the bottom of my heart and I'll be gone.When you made me cry, made me feel unloved, I was always there by your side.
No matter what you did or what you said, I was proud to be your girl. My love for you is greater than anything in this world, You know that no one can love you like I do. Everything we have been through, I was faithful to you, and only you. It made me realize that what I felt was wrong, Because I know i won't get you no matter how much I strive. No stupid love song can describe how I feel. Sometimes the words other people say are never good enough or real. No one will ever know how I'm feeling today. All i can say is i had put my hopes up way too high. I'll fake my smile. I'll say I'm okay. I'll be happy for a while, and be dead inside. I'm at a loss. Really, sigh.

WOEBEGONE.
Why does some people often get what they deserves & why some people doesn't get what they deserves ? Life is really so complicated. God often likes to play a trick on us. He always made us feels that things are going on smoothly for us yet at the end its not. I'm at a loss right now so am i feeling so disoriented. Sigh.

These two songs describes my feelings.

You made me soar high baby ♥

2010-01-25T06:46:00.000-08:00

2010-01-24T07:31:00.000-08:00

On Friday, 22th January evening, met up with my love && also shermin (: HAHA ! && On Saturday, 23th January, met up with my love, jovin sis, steven, john && joy sis at bugis :D Aftermath, went to X.baby sis house to meet her as i miss her alot & she misses me alot :D HEHE ! Before going up her house, packed some food for her & her daddy :D At about 11 plus, i went back home :D I miss my love alot ! (: Love is starting to be important to me. Just miss him alot without seeing him.

2010-01-16T07:40:00.000-08:00

Shall just upload some pictures. && Peeps, i know my blog seems to be dead. Dont worry, i will update my blog whenever i'm free alright (:

&& Thanks mummy for buying the bags in the image below :D HAHA ! Been in high spirits when i saw it (:

Never saw it coming & Neither did i ever thought about it.

2009-09-12T08:06:00.000-07:00

Usual for today :D Headed down to bugis & met up with all my sister. Laughs. After some sisters had gone home, i accompanied magdeline for awhile & i headed home too && Meanwhile met up with eddie too but not long after he went to join John & co. && Also lastly but not the very least, I Love Felicia Tham Mun Yee Sister (: So as the other sis :D Loveyougirls.

Lost, But You'd Saved Me In The Nick Of Time.

2009-09-05T09:19:00.000-07:00

ATROCIOUS.

In Confusion. Paranoid.

2009-08-22T07:47:00.000-07:00

Gees, the picture above is kinda quite long ago. No new picture currently as i'm lazy to take. Hahas !
Well, its time to update you guys about what had happened isnt it ? Laughs.

To Hecken:

I keep thinking but I still cannot figure out any words for you so that you'll come back, im really trying hard not to let this bother me but. I don't know. I really dont know. For the days when we were still together & days after we had just broke off, i've been waiting for miracles to happen. I've been praying to god & hope he could create miracles for me as he's the only one could do that ! But...Sigh ): I meant seriously. I guess its time i shall says everything from the bottom of my heart. No point deceiving myself. I'm really sick & tired of the triangle r/s. Really sick & tired, For the goodness sake ! Now i've finally seen your true colours. I dont regret doing & buying all those things for you because i'm glad that i'm doing my part as a girlfriend. But sadly to say that when we're together in the past, you dont even seems to be my boyfriend. But oppositely, your family were the ones who'd cared so much just for me. They had made an effort & trying ways & means just to salvage our r/s. But what about you ? All you did was nothing but mapling. Did you even spare a thought for me ! You ask yourself. You said you dont even loved me, then what for act till like one in the first place ! Hey come on, do you think its funny ? I dont think so. & You said we're over isnt it ? Well, over means over already. & Over means you go your own way & i goes my own way. But apparently, it seems like its not over. When i'm still with you, you'd made me deeply hurt. & When we'd broke off but remained as friends, your so called JULIANA still wants to agitate me yeahs ! Hey, dont be too much la seriously. My tolerance have its limit okay. I dare to say right now, i dont even intend to forgive & forget about what that bitch Juliana had done to me behind my back because she dont deserves any sympathy from me ! I guess she's just acting innoncent whom as if she dont knows everything. But sadly to say that she's not innoncent at all ! There are times i really wonder why did i do so much things just for you when you dont even seems to appreciate it. I also wonder why did i love you so much when you doesnt seems to cherish me. But well, its all over this time i know. There's no turning back. But its alright. Because i feels better this way too as i wont be feeling like i'm carrying such a big heavy burden on me. I tired, real tired. You wrote till its all my fault & i'm as if playing the bad role, but pls use your freaking brain & think calmly. What for i go bother your so-called current gf right now. She say you believe, then what if she ask you eat shit you also go la is it ?!?! Boy, come on la. You aint any younger. You are already 18 this year. Therefore i believe you also know la, would i be so childish to go find her just because of our triangle r/s ? Of course not ! Its obviously other things which you might not know & you dont have the need to know i guess. Lols, tell your gf this la ! I, Stephanie Tan Shi Ya, says this " If you have guts to do all those things to me & said about me, then please have the guts to face all consequences. You can even say till back-ups everything until you macham sibei ehsai like that ehs ! Please do not be a coward alright. " Lols. Therefore i now want you to know, i've totally given up hope on you ! So dont keep having the assuption always whenever i & juliana got things to sort out with. & This time, you've no say if i really go find juliana because it doesnt involve with you. But one advice to you la. Open your big eyes & see what kind of person she is ba. To me, juliana is a hypocrite !

To:Yiling (Juliana's Friend)

I dont care & dont bother knowing what she'd eventually said things to you. But one thing i'm for sure is that you dont have the need to be involve in this thing. If you says you'd enough of me then come find me then. Lols. When i & hecken are together, she's dz gf. & End up what happen ? You should know yeahs, i dont have the need to say it too straightforward. As what i've said to juliana the last time before hecken & i broke up, i dont blame her for loving hecken because i know love cant be controlled by just you & i clinging onto each other. But its our felings right form the bottom of our heart. Therefore i dint pursue the matter much any further. I let natural take its course. But when hecken & i had broke off, i know she's been contacting chingying asking things all about me. I know all that. But i kept quiet. Because i've no time entertaining your these & that. I still have a pending case & dont wish to bother anymore things regarding juliana & hecken unless its hecken's mum contacting me. But until chingying told me that juliana & her friends had been backstabbing me behind my back, i admit i'd turn really insane by then. Therefore, its she & her friends forced me into this state. & Also la, if you not happy with me or thinks i'm at fault when eventually i'm not, then come straight to me & let me know. Lols. Also, you said i making things big ? Laughs, as what i've said, she forced me to. & I wont be able to make things into this state or make things big provided if she never do all those things behind my back right from the start. Aint i'm stating the facts & being reasonable ? Well to me, i think i'm being reasonable. If she can do all those things to me, then she must be able to face the music all by herself. She is not a kid therefore i assume she does have a brain to think on the right mindset yeahs. Since she can says all those things which isnt the facts about me to others, then she should face the consequences. I'm just being fair & reasonable alright for the goodness sake. If you still have any more enquires regarding about her & my problem, feel free to come to me straight. I'm more glad to let you people know what kind of person she is. I already said very clearly, if you people whom are also her friends think i'm bullying her or what, then so be it. I wont give a damn. Because thats just all of your thinking & your mindset, not mine. I only trust evidence & my eyes. So if you guys are still unhappy with me or whatever, then come to me then. I shall wait for you guys. Thats all.

Life Is Indeed A Tragedy.

I broke down emotionally today. Really. I doesnt know what the hell had happened to me. I'm really at a loss of words. After what we all sisters had finally said our words right from the bottom of our hearts, i eventually broke down immediately. I really miss the past. All the while, its my sisters whom were there for me. When i'm in help, they would lend me their helping hand willingly & immediately without a second thoughts. I swear i love them the best ! Sisters, i had a great time with you people today. & Also i would like to wish my daddy whom is steven & also john "HAPPY 21 BIRTHDAY :D"
Take Great Care Yeahs Peeps.

2009-07-29T05:26:00.000-07:00

Melancholy !

2009-07-20T06:34:00.000-07:00

Hello peeps, i'm finally back to blogging .
Aww, has blogger posting had changed ? Why it seems so different when it comes to posting.
Laughs. Perhaps its due to me seldom blogging. Hohos :D

Well, i'm seriously suffering. Why is it one by one all went it sit ? Sigh, sisters one by one had gone in already. I'm starting to miss those past we've had & especially those times we'd in my house. Sigh ): SHAG SHAG SHAG !

Woots, i'm learning how to bake chocolate chip cookies so as well as brownies too. Hahahas, must be wondering why am i doing all these stuffs yeahs ? Its secret ! Laughs, narhs. Its actually because i wanna whip up a meal & snacks for my baby :D Sweet isnt it ? Hahas, dont be jealous man (((:

To My Romeo, HECKEN LIM ♥ :
♥ Baby, i'm beginning to love you more & more each day. Its true, i'm aint kidding .&& Baby, i wished to say that to you I give the whole me,for I believe that you're my destiny. To you I offer every best of my heart,for I believe that you will value it.I want to share my whole life with you,for me to show that my love is true.I want to hold you in my arms,&& sing you songs and lullabies. All i want to say is that loving you is what I want to do (: Baby, you know the real me as you've seen me cry, you've seen me smile. Without you, there would be no me. I meant it seriously. Baby, being with you everyday makes my love for you grow even stronger. My love grows even stronger every time I'm around you. So strong that if my love for you was a string it would be double knotted. My heart pounds more than a clock ticks faster than a plane taking off. I feel as though my heart wants to pound out of my chest pull out a white flag and surrender itself to you. You are like my pollen to my flower without you I couldn't grow. You are like the sunlight of my day without you I couldn't see. You are the heart of my body without you I couldn't live. Baby, i wants to tell you that communication indeed must takes practice, it's never perfect, sometimes not patient, sometimes not kind, but you have to say what's on your mind. Communication is not a one way street, it takes two,to concur this feat. Communication is hard you see,but in the end,it is key. To that great relationship, we all want and need. Open your heart, say what's on your mind. When we are partners for life there's nothing to hide (: Baby, you are my inspiration, the reason of my motion. The heart of my whole body, that makes up my fantasy. I need you like the air I breathe, and will not just leave you beneath. I cherish you, my only love, I promise you, I'll be your dove. A dove with pure intentions, that considers your decision. I know it's already enough, for me to never make you rough. I will do everything for you, to make our relationship true. And in the essence of trusting, we can make our lives worth-living ! && LASTLY, I wish to say a sorry to you for kept being over-sensitive & kept having doubt in you. I'm also sorry doing all those silly stuffs. I sorry for being unreasonable sometimes too. But you cant blame me either baby, its all because i love you too much ! You deserves my love, care & concern. Baby, no matter how good or bad you treat me, in my eyes, you're still the best (: I believe perseverance can make things better than before, therefore, you ask me if i'm willing to wait, my answer to you without any single consideration is YES I'M WILLING TO WAIT ! I want you to be my legal husband in future so as to care for you, love you & take great care of you :D I hope that i could take up all those wife responsibility so as to be good wife of yours in future :D Baby, i'd sort out my thinking already, from now on, you wanna do what just go ahead. All i can say is that when you feels happy, i'm happy & glad too. Even though you neglect me in future, i'll also tolerate evrything so as not to quarrel with you as i dont want us to fall out just because of a small matter. Baby, I had also made up my mind that i wont keep annoy you by kept calling you & msg you. I would be waiting for you msg & call 24 hours in a day. So if you feels like contacting me then contact me. If you dont wish to, its ok. I wont force you either. But of course i'll be glad if you could be like last time keep contacting me which i dont dare to put so much hope in it. Sigh. I know i'm annoying, i'm sorry. Perhaps i'm the one whom is useless & not you. What i can do is to hide underneath my blanket & cry all out during the nights. I told myself that i should have 100 percent trust & faith in you & not just kept having many doubts in you. I'm really sorry. I know its my fault. & I know i'm aint perfect at all. How good or bad you wanna treat me, i've already no say in it. Just go ahead & do what you wish for. I'm feeling so hopeless & left out. Sigh, but its alright though. But i really wants you to know that i've really been trying to be a good girlfriend. I dont know if you feels this way or not, but i'm really tring. In fact, i've been giving in alot alot ! All i could is to give in & tolerate. Yes indeed, the feeling is rather painful. My heart seriosuly do aches alot when come to think of it. But i dont mind, its all because, seeing you smile makes my mind feels at ease :D I'm Sorry & I love you baby ♥

To Kosipei :
Sister, those times we'd i'll never forget. I promise. Yes, even though we did drift alot but in my heart you're still precious to me so as important to me too.I seriously hope that after this lesson, you would change for the better ok.No more playing or fooling anymore really, & its time to be serious already.Do takecare of yourself inside ok my dear sis.
Sigh, I miss you really alot KOSIPEI ! I'm awaiting for you to come out peacefully.

To Kwanbeeshi :
Jie, its been some time since you went inside yeahs. I really miss each an everyone of your inside. Really ! Sigh, takecare sis. && Remember those promise you made to me uhhs, Must change for the better le. & You also said you regret those foolish things you'd did, therefore don't repeat the same mistakes again alright. Imissyoudearly. Awaiting for you to come out yeah sis.

To Devil :
Brother, sigh. Miss you really alot. I swear ! I've gotta wait so long for you to out you know ! & Not only me, jiali & the rest are still awaiting for your release. Brother, miss you man ):

2009-07-08T02:01:00.000-07:00

Hahahahas:DDDD Mom bought a Coach Wallet for me just now ((: I took a picture of it && its just above. Gees, Thanks mom for buying me the wallet. She's a great mom, i swear ! && Nowhere could i ever find a mom like her. Hahahas {{: I feel so fortunate when she's around because she's the one whom always give me the courage to live on. Really ! Without her, i do not know how things will be like for me. I don't know whats gonna happen, how am i gonna cope, i don't even dare to think about it. All i know is that without her, there would be no me. Her love, her attention, her guidance, have made me who i am. Without her, i would be lost, wandering aimlessly, without direction or purpose. Without her, there would be an empty space i could never fill, no matter how i tried. Instead, because of her, I have joy, contentment, satisfaction and peace. Yes, although sometimes i find her naggy as she whines alot at me && even though we often quarrels, i still love her (: Hahahahas, i just love her the most :DDDDDD <33

Is It Time For Me To Let Go ?? Its Hard.

SLEEPLESS NIGHTS, Paranoid.

Well, you guys must be wondering what had happen over the past few days isnt it ?

Sigh, first of all i would like to say that many things had afflicted much agony into my life. All these while i've been getting more emotional than before, i mean seriously speaking yeahs. I really want to pour everything out, i swear !!! I was pondering about what went wrong to let things end up like this. All these while, i've lain awake many sleepless nights && through the nights, i've been wondering why cant i just be like my old-self ? I've been thinking about my past. When i thought back of my past, i find it ridiculous too. Back then, almost everyday i've been in high spirits & not like now. I've been telling my friends to think of the positive sights & not the negative sights. But for me, i just cant. Ridiculous isnt it ? Sigh. My life is totally meaningless right now, it isnt as awesome as you people think. People says in life there's always ups & downs. I totally agree too ! But why there isnt any ups in my life but always the downs. Sigh. Currently, pondering many whys in my mind. I really want to cry it all out. You may see me struggle but you wont see me fall. Regardless if I'm weak or not, I'm going to stand tall && stay strong. Everyone says life is easy but truly living it is not. Times get hard, people struggle & constantly get put on the spot. I'm going to wear the biggest smile even though I want to cry. I'm going to fight to live even though I'm destined to die. But its rather hard for me to accomplish that. Sigh. Now i'm like walking in the shadow of fear, drowning endlessly by a single tear, running along side of self-discovery, fearing the loss of self- recovery, parts of mind going unknown, dangerous sides going unshown. && So i told myself that one day you will eventually die, so why not make everything right before dying. I really felt myself totally incomplete as if something's missing right now ! && Thats Love, Care & Concern. && Now, my life really sucks. But for the future, i'm unsure. Everything is hard to say. There's many possibilities in this world. Life is a carousel. Always going forward, never going back. When all others retreat, we must prevail. We are the conscious inside our head. We create our own destiny. && As we get older, our life becomes a challenge. So from now onwards, i must often remind myself look to the future && not to the past, even though its hard. But i bet it wont work this way cause its impossible for me to do till that extend of not look back to the past. Sigh. Paranoid, Shag, Emotional, Sorrowful, Disappointment && Melancholy !!

Lastly but not the least, I'm really thankful to have Xiaobaby=Felicia Tham Mun Yee as my dearest sister ! I swear. She's the one whom is always with me when i'm feeling low & down. She's the one whom had given me any good advices & guidance. All those things she'd done for me, its similar to my mom. Therefore i say she can be my second mom && she deserves my love & care :DDDD Sister, thanks alot. Also chill mans ((: As I think of our sistership, I begin to see mere words can't describe what you mean to me.When this cold, hard world has me lonesome and blue, I look up to see my angel, my sweet angel, you.You dry the tears that fall from my eyes.You bring me sunshine to brighten my sky.You rescue me when I'm scared and alone. &&& take my hand to lead me home.No matter the miles that keep us apart, we're always together in each other's hearts.If ever you felt I forgot or didn't care, Let me stop right now, my true feelings I'll share.You're the sun in my sky, the bed where I lie.You're the home where I'm safe, the field where I play.You're everything I am, everything I do.So what I am saying is I LOVE YOU sister ! (((: Arent you touched ? Hahahahas :DDDD

&& TO OTHER SISTRS, ( XIAOBEE, NANA, JOVIN, JOY, FIONA, SIPEI, MAGDELINE, YVONNE, SHERILYN, BOBO ) Love you girls too :DD

Also to Sherilyn & Xiaobee Sis:

Takecare while inside okays. I'll wait for your no matter what ((:

Loveyour.

Its Time For Me To Bid-Farewell Now :DDD

2009-06-29T04:41:00.000-07:00

Hellos Peeps (:
Back to blog currently.
Shag & Paranoid.

Friday (26/6/2009)
Met up with priscilla honey at 1.30pm at her house downstair. & Accompanied her to mend her shoe :D Afterwards, went down to bugis to get money from 1 girl as she wanna buy something from my honey blogshop & guess who i'd saw ? Laughs, Its Fiona & X.baby sister :D I've not been going down bugis for quite long due to something happen that makes me become moodless & restless. & Also we headed down to Tampinese Mall for "PASTAMANIA" (: Laughs ! Enjoy the day with her mans ! Its been a long time since i last seen her, even she says so (: Hahahas, feels kinda guilty mans ! Guess gotta meet up with her often (: && She says i look better than before :D Aww, i changed ! Its like Finally :D Laughs :D So happy.
&& At about 5.15pm, we headed back to bedok. As honey gonna go her bf's house while i'm meeting YVONNE SNG,my sister (: Hahahahas ! Headed down to Changi SAF Chalet :D Its my school friend birthday :D & He & his gf invited all of our school cliques :D Enjoy at there too, woots its like clubbing over there mans as they on song very loud mans ! Hahahahs, they blust their song (: ! Also i made a new friend at there :D She named "Xiaozhu", i guess ? Hahahahas ! Had a great talk with her too :D && At about 9.30pm cabbed down back to my hometown tpy as got some problem. Met tpy x.bee whom is my meimei first & then accompanied her to meet mable as we're gonna settle some problem. Hmmm, shall not talk about it anymore. Its a small problem either (: But Mable seems to be angry with my meimei. As if like she wont let her off easily. Sigh. I cant help much either . Well at about 12am, i cabbed home with 1 guy as he stay just my block behind (: He's friendly . Its like the second time i saw him. He's Mable friend. Laughs. Home Sweet Home {{:

Saturday (27/6/2009) && Sunday (28/6/2009)
Stay-ed at home & rot whole day. Only went out to buy stuffs to prepare for school re-opening :D Gees ! Kinda miss my school life but also kinda shag as gonna be hard-working again. This time no more fooling around. Gotta really buck up on my studies mans :D Hais, received some shocking & unhappy news by 1 "GUY" hais. Maybe to him is a good news but to me is a sad news. Aww, I guess all i can is to only wait. He's right, no one knows the future before us. Only god knows (: && also he's right by saying its actually TIME that matters. Its just all TIME ! Well, i shall be patient :D I have no idea why i'm so heart-broken . Hais. Shall not leak so much of my secrets out gees (:

Monday (29/6/2009)
Well, school had eventually start :D
Was kinda looking forward on whats gonna happen in school mans today at first in the morning, Hahahahahas ! Seems to be so excited .
Met up with my meimei, Tpy x.bee & went off to school together. Hahahahas !
Miss all those cliques of mind in school :D (Liying, Taying, Michelle & more...)
Laughs ! Hmmm, well that jayden still had not changed. Just still likes to disturb me, pull my hair & drink my water . Ass ! && Then he still can smile at me. Its like WTH ? HAHAHAHAS ! But overall, He's a good friend :D Laughs ! Sometimes funny too. Same goes to Philip, Jeremy, Asthina & co. Hahahas. But at least they wont be the same like that jayden kept pulling my hair ass ! As if like only he can disturb me & i cant larhs. Unfair isnt it ! ): Hahahas, Laughs !

SHAG & PARANOID.
Currently in a confusing state of mind ):
Hmmm, well these few days i'm really very moodless. Hais, i dont know what to say more either. Sigh ! God is simply unfair. Really, i aint kidding ! Why must i always be suffering ? WHY WHY WHY ! Aww....Hais, I dont mind waiting. Really. But who can ensure me that everything will comes out well for me ? No one isnt it. Sigh. Depressed ! D:

2009-06-21T08:01:00.000-07:00

I'm Shag & Paranoid ):

I'm here to blog again !

Laughs :DDD

Hmmm, well over these few days i've learnt to let it go. I've finally learnt to face up to reality. No point clinging on to something which doesnt belongs to you either, i mean seriously speaking. Ohya holidays might extend for another week ohs ! Hahahahahas (: But its MIGHT only ! Sigh. Honestly speaking, love cant be forced i knew all along. But i thought perseverance & by giving in anything i could can salvage everything but i guess i'd made a big mistake & end up getting hurt. Hais, i guess i'm just too foolish & stupid all along. Hais. I often tell me self this, & that is " It's only the beginning now,A pathway yet unknown.Sometimes we walk alone.
The best beginnings of our lives may sometimes end in sorrow, but even on our darkest days, the sun will shine tomorrow." (: Hais. I've learnt to think of the positive side & not the negative as it only gives us pain & sorrow. Humph. I face the world with a smile, no one knows what is hid inside.They see only happiness, they cant see the tears I've cried.When I am alone I hurt, because here I do it well.In front of all the watchful eyes my heaven turns to hell.The judge and jury awaits me, everyone has a say.In a life that hangs suspended for yet another day.Who are they to judge if what I have done is right or wrong?In the end I gave him up, its all because he had done me real wrong.I don't know how to find the strength I thought I had. If only I could play tough it wouldn't be so bad.They say that life goes on and someday I'll smile again.But, how do they know my pain which i've been going through all these while when they are not me at all ? Humph. But i guess i'll get it over all soon because now i'm so much stronger than before (: Gees ! && Thanks to my friend "TAY JINGFENG" for giving me so much advices & letting me have the mindset not to be so foolish & silly anymore :D Thanks ohs {: Gees !

&&&& To you "Tay Jingfeng" :

Cheer up oh ass , hahahas :D Its not the end of the world yet (: I believe you can get over everthing & stand up on your feet again isnt it ? Hahhahahas ! Smile alrights, dont shag anymore. It wont do you any good either. It only makes you brood over the past & giving you pain & sorrow. Look at the days ahead you, i believe its gonna be bright :D Gees ! Life is always like that, there's always the good so does the bad. Or maybe sometimes its the god whom had played a trick on you. Hmm, i guess its not only you but me too ! I guess & i do believe i got hurt more than you do, so if i could stand up on my feet again bravely, i believe you could do it to yeahs (: && Hahahahahs, dont deny you're feeling better mans ! I know, cause i've succeeded in cheering you up gees :DDD Just want you to know a break-up is not the end of the world yet. Many good things are awaiting ahead of you still (: Hope all these of my encouragement words could cheer you up ! Laughs *

Thats all (:

Takecare & Bye Readers !

2009-06-10T05:19:00.000-07:00

Hey, i'm back to blogging currently :D

&Oh Please, for goodness sake. Why does the world seems to be so unfair. I mean seriously, i'm stating the facts alright ! Sigh.

This few days staying at my aunty's house in kallang :) Laughs !

Shall carry on writing how shag am i & how confused am i below alrights .

Aww, Annoy-ed Too .

Paranoid & Confused.

SHAG IN CURRENT ):

Life for me recently has been going through the ups & downs. The goods & the bads. Aww, how long must i tolerate all these torturing mans ! The feeling is freaking unbearable, Sigh. Oh My Romeo, i guessed i'd finally found you & i hope you're true to me(: I gave you all my heart & soul & i dont mind if you cant.You were the one i loved right now. You dont lose anything at all but in fact you had gained something in return & that is having my love. When i'm feeling down & even sad, if i felt angry rather mad, if i was in tears feeling bad, my love for you i did not dread. Even through all those struggles & storms, even if there's fights & tussles, all those disrespect & abuse, my love will still be true like as now. When you made me cry, made me felt so unloved, i'm still always there by your side. By your side to console you, to be your listening ear, to be your encouragement to pull yourself up. No matter what you did or what you've said, i'm gladly to say that i'm proud to be your girl. My love for you is greater than anything else in this world, you know no one could love you like how i do. Everything we have been through, you know whats the thing. Till then, i was faithful to you , and its only you my dear. Trust me, will you ? I wanted to be happy, who doesnt ? But its just taht my depression often occurs. I wanted to stop crying too, but my tears just keep falling. I wanted to smile either, but a frown always appear on my face. Seriously, how i wished that i could be strong enough to say just a 'NO' to you. How i wished i could believed my own lies which i used to cover up the pain you left. I seriously need to move on & hold on says my heart truthfully.&& I seriously do want this nightmare to disappeared right away & at one shot. Could god fulfil my this request ? I know i dont have the right to request anything from you, its all because i know i'm not good enough for you. Therefore i tried & tried all ways & means just to get your love. You said you loved me currently, && i was indeed happy when i hear that from you. && I too hope that what you've said is the truth(: What i hoped is that you would be true & faithful to me. If you can do it, i will feel really pleased. So baby prove it to me you do love me okays :D cause i love you alot ! Sigh, currently paranoid & confused.

Totally bored mans these few days. I've been like rotting at home for about 2 whole days can ! Tomorrow will be off meeting my Romeo at my aunty's house here cause he is only staying just the block beside my aunty's block :D Gees, cool & good isnt it peeps ! Hahs, My Romeo Is My Love & Also My Sweetest Ecstasy Even So He Doesnt Treat Me As One :) Bye Love :D

Takecares.

Wed, 10/6/09. (09.20PM)

I'm Romeo's Juliet & Daddy's Little Girl :D

2009-05-25T07:17:00.000-07:00

Hellos, i'm finally back to blogging mans :)
It seems months i've not been blogging. Ohgosh, My blog is rotting DDDDD:

Hais, i really wonder why do many unfortunate things happen on a person when they had already changed for the better. Things are beginning to get back on track yet god had as if made us like a fool. Hais.

&&& Ohmygosh, My exams marks had deteriorated. Awww, i've gotta buck up on my studies already during this june holidays ! I cant afford to retain another year. Currently, Paranoid & Annoyed.

Aww, There are many things simply getting on my nerves !
&&& KWANBEESHI ! Even though you're going in , you're still my sister :) &&& I'll always be waiting for you to come out just like the other sisters .
Hais, those old days we've had spent together often will always be left as memories & stayed in my heart forever. I seriously do miss our old days ! Really alot.

Well, life in school seems to be a boredom whenever exams had just officially end-ed DDDD:
Awwww, but school was going pretty fine for me still :) Hahahahahahas !

I miss all my sisters & brothers :DDDD &&& I believe i'll meet up with them as often as like last time :))))))

&&& OH MY ROMEO, WHERE ARE YOU ? ):

2009-03-20T03:29:00.000-07:00

I'm back to blogging again cause i know my blog is like dead ? hais, no mood to blog often too. Aww, i'm stress-ed & confused ! Really.........argh, i feel like i'm totally lifeless mans DDDDD:

To: Xiaobaby, xiaoki, sipei, jovin, joy &&& others sisters in the sisterhood.

Humph, i was asking myself if we're all drifting ? &&& yes, in my mind it says we all are really drifting. I know i recently went MIA, its my fault for not meeting you girls often but sisters, as i've said, i'm back from MIA already isnt it ? hais. My mind is totally blank right now, really. i doesnt know what to do to salvage the drifting of our sisterhood. I know all of you might think that i'm changing but i'm not, seriously not. In my heart, each & everyone of your are important to me like as last time still. I dont wish to lose anyone of your.

To Xiaobaby sis :

Last sunday when i saw you, i was really loss of words. I did not think of anything else other than hug you tightly. You're really important to me sis, so are the other sisters. When i saw you i was really happy, really ! I made a promise to myself & that is i'll meet your often just like how we always gather around . Sister, i just want you to remember this till eternity, && that is that once we're sisters, we'll always be sisters . As we've said, sisters for life not only for now (: Sister, no matter how you think of me, i'll still only tell you this, && that is that you were always there for me, through the thick and thin. Always you were there being my best sisters & friend. No matter what happened to us, or came in our way, you never left me all alone but you were there to stay. Really thanks alot sister. Loveyousister ! Nowsaday, i often kept thinking & remembering the past. When all those thoughts of we sisters have not drift & often together gathering around, came into my mind, my tears just rolled down my cheeks. I would just simply burst into tears. Humph, sister, if i have let you have the thinking that i've changed then i apologized for it. cause its not facts at all, i dint changed, you're still as important to me ! You had already made a part in my life, I guess thats all i wish to say to you from the bottom of my heart :DDD && Sister, i also have many things to tell you too. I know by giving you a call could also tell you but i still feels that when we met up & have a heart to heart talk, that would be better ! && also i guess you dont know that i recently have a pending case yeahs ? i dint tell you sisters is because i doesnt want your to worry. But no matter what forget it, i dont wish to rake it up either.Just remember that Sister, iloveyou (: You're an angel from God up above and I'm thankful for your understanding love because when you're around, everything seems right for me :DD Also sister, You made me laugh when I cried so hard. You held me close when I was so cold. You offered a comforting hand to hold. You picked me up whenever I fell. You showed me heaven when I was blinded by hell. You answered my calls in the darkened night. You gave me the reasons to hold on and fight. You placed me back on the right path again. You loved me forever and stayed by my side. You entered my heart as an angel to guide (: Thanks for everything you had done for me sister :DDD Iloveyou, imissyou && lastly ineedyou {{{:

To Xiaoki (fiona) sis:

Sister, i really miss you simply alot. I know we're drifting but still you're as important to me too ! Sis, even though you're in hostel right now, but dont worry, i believe not only me but all sisters in the sisterhood will be waiting for you to come out yeahs. No matter what, i'll still always be there for you, really. Sister, I just wished to tell you that you have stayed by my side still even when others fled, I know that because you're here, I can face whatever is ahead, your smile and laugh urge me on, && also it encourage me to be strong. Your loving support helps me to stand up strong :DDD Mortal words could never explain what you have come to be, you are my life, my world, my heart. You are EVERYTHING to me sis ! Sister, but also i beg you to contact me whenever you're out cause these few weeks i've been trying to contcat you as i seriously want to meet you up. I've many things to tell you & share with you also. Sister, && also i guess you does not know that recently i have a pending case uhhs? hais, forget it. i dont wish to rake it upeither but sis, please do give me a call when you're out alrights (: Iloveyou. Sister, Before i met you, my life was grey. I had no one to talk to, nothing to say. When i met you, you brighten up my life. If it wasn't for you, my life will be taking by a knife. Me and you talked, and became best friends. We promised each other, we would be there to the end yeahs :DDD I love you, I miss you & lastly, i need you (((:

To Sipei sis :

Sister, still remember those nights at my house ? Still remember those fun we've used to have in the past ? Still remember those fun we had in my chalet ? Steill remember those times when we both are often together ? I believe you would have those thoughts in your mind still yeahs ? Cause all these memories is hard to forget. Sister, i remember once we talk-ed over the phone till we both burst into tears. We really did shared all things with each & another uhhs, but now, you seldom ring me up. you seldom message me too. Really. humph, When i message you sometimes you dint even reply back. I'm really sad. Sister, i know you're stressed too & i know you do miss your boyfriend too . Each of us sister indeed are not as cheerful like as last time already. Hais, But sister, i seriously do hope that you would contact me as often as like last time. Really, thats my only request from you. Sister, i know you might think i've changed uhhs ? But let me tell you straight, i dint changed at all. You too are still important to me. Like i've said, when you need someone to talk to, ring me up (: I'll be there. When you need a shoulder to cry on, i would lend you my shoulders (: When you met up with a problem, i would try my best to help you solve your problem too (: I will always be free 24hours for you sisters :DDD Last few weeks, i admit is my fault for going MIA && not meet up with your girls often, i'm sorry. But sister, that time i was really indeed very sad & stressed ! I guess you sisters still does not know that i recently do have a pending case still yeahs ? humph, forget it. i dont wish to rake it up either. But i just hope that you sisters would trust me that i'm not changing & i'm still the same like as last time just that i'm not that cheerful already. I just simply love you lots too ((((((: Sister, I want you to remember those good old days we've had. Those days of happiness when everything went your way .I want you to cherish these memories (: I don't want you to let them go. And I hope they make you happy as they did so long ago. I wish I could comfort you, shield you from life's pain. I wish I could just give you everything, you definitely deserve something to gain. If you ever need me, just give me a call (: That is all you have to do. You've been through so much these days, I'm sure God has something planned out yeahs ! But in order to see it, You cannot be blinded by doubt. So just let me help you && that is tell me everything you're going through. Let go of all those troubles you're having. Because the more you hold on the more it doubles, Please, I can see your smile fading. Really. In the past I wasn't always there, i confess. So sis, give me a chance this time to repay you back. I swear on my life I'll be right beside you to save the emptiness in your mind :DDDD Sister, i need you always !

To Jovin Sister :

Sister, i must admit that we're not that close anymore yeahs. We're drifting ! Really. But sister, no matter what i just want you to know that you'll always be my sister. Not only for now, but forever (: We might not have been friends from the start, But that doesnt mean you werent always in my heart.I wish I was friends with you from a very young age, But its okay because when I became friends with you my life started a new page. Our friendship means so much to me which I just cant say,I dont know what I would do without you and your thoughtful way.Really sister, i know you too might think that i'm changing uhhs, but in fact i'm not ! Really. I still need you girls as much as like last time. I'm just stress-ed 7 sad these few months. Hais, sometimes your might think in appearance i'm cheerful, but actually im not ! I must say i myself is not that optimistic anymore. Really. Hais, for this i must say i've changed but my heart isnt changing ! Sister, i believe you too doesnt know that recently i have a pending case uhhs, humph. Forget it, i doesnt wish to rake it up either. Just remember that i love you yeahs :DDDDDDDDD You have been there for me every step of the way, Helping me to take life day by day.You have helped me forget my fears,And in the end that has stopped my tears.Thank you so much for all you have done for me,You made me be the best person I can be. Thanks sister (: Iloveyou, imissyou && ineedyou !

To Joy sis :

Sister, it seems like we've totally drift uhhs ! We've totally not been in contact. It seems like a nightmare to me really sis. I just hope that you would contact me back soon && meet me soon yeahs. Cause i have many things to share with you (: Sister, just let you know that recently i have a pending case. Hais. But no matter what sis, i just want you to know that i just love you & its forever yeahs :DDD Sister, remember those nights you had stayed over at my house ? I simply do miss those times. Really ! Sister, all those memories will always be remembered & not forgotten . Sister, i just wnat to tell you this & that is in the past you were there to listen, when no one else would. You would cheer me up, when no one else could. Whenever I was scared, you'd chase away my fears. Whenever I would cry, you'd wipe away my tears. I can always count on you, to help me smile again. I've come to count on you because you'll be there in the end (: So I want to say thanks for always being there. And for saving me from my own despair, and one final thing here in this part. && that is I love you with ever piece of my heart :DDDDDDDDD Iloveyou, imissyou && lastly ineedyou !

To other sisters, (nana,bobo,sherilyn,xiaobee,magdeline,marilyn,karen,xiaodrea.....)

I'm really glad that I've found you,knowing you'll be there whenever i may need you.Thank you so much for what you've done,for what you've said,what you'll do, && what you'll say.For all those times I've called, and talked for hours on end, you stayed there, on the line,like a good true friend.I'll never forget, those true hugs that you gave without regret, those times i felt so sad,you were right there,something I'll never forget.Let me tell you,and i hope you take it to heart, && that is there'll never be someone like you,and i hope you feel the same way too.I'll be there for you,like you've always been for me (: I'll give you my hand to hold,my shoulder to cry on,and my attention just for you.I just want to say a big big THANK YOU to you all sisters (((:

To Liaw Xueting Sis :DDDD

gees, sissy i'm also glad that you've not forgot me ohs ! Hahahahahahas. && sis, If ever you need a helping hand, just reach out and touch mine. If ever you're scared or afraid,I'll be right by your side. If ever you need words of advice,I'll give you the best I have. If ever you're sad and depressed,I'll try to brighten your day. If ever you need a shoulder to cry on, I have two, waiting here for you. If ever you simply need to talk,I promise I'll sit and listen.Whatever the reason,whatever you're searching for,whatever you need, I promise I'll always be there for you ((: To you my little sister,You're there for me more than anyone else has ever been.

You listen to my break-up and "pimping" stories,You put up with my shit & nonsense almost everytime, The same old boring stories. You make me laugh when I'm sad,When I'm depressed and i feel like the world is against me, You're always there to give me a hug,To give me positive words and feelings. You make me forget about all my troubles. In this crazy world, you mean more to me than my own life. I'm here for you just as you was there for me, anytime anywhere. I will go out of my way to make u and keep u happy. I only say this because i love you, I love you more that my first love, I love you more than my last. My Sister, You are My Best Friend && I Simply Just Love You (: & Even though we were friends for not that long, i just want to tell you that you are one of my best sister :DDDD

To "SOMEONE" whom had left me quite long :

You were my everything . & Now you’re gone. I'm afraid that i don’t have the strength to carry on.
Skies always seemed sunny when you were here. Now there’s nothing but gloom in my atmosphere.
I loved you so much, You were all I had, Now my whole world is depressing and sad.
I’d like to start feeling other than blue,But you were my everything,What can I do?

Now that you’re gone, I realize how much you meant to me.My loss is wide as a starless night sky, And deep as a stormy sea.
I miss the comfort of your sweet love,Your absolute devotion, Now I’m a fountain of endless tears,A pool of sad emotion.
They tell me I should move on with life,That time will heal my pain. I smile and nod and agree with them,While I slowly go insane.

If only I had done the things that keep true love alive, I wouldn’t have to acknowledge now that our love cannot survive.
If only I had described to you the joy you brought to me,Instead of bringing you complaints,You wouldn’t have set me free.
If I had often said to you,"It’s you whom I adore,"Perhaps you’d still be with me now,If I had told you more.
If only I had treated you as if we were best friends,I wouldn’t be alone in grief,As our faded love finally ends.
If only I didn’t have to say,"If only, my love, if only,"I wouldn’t be all by myself. So sorry, sad and lonely right now hais. Life is getting meaningless for me, that is all i can say for now.

I'm so confused,about how things are.Do you still love me?Or are my hopes too far?Hais.

I dont know if i should just let bygones be bygones. Or shall i keep raking up the past. Shall i carry on with my life anew or shall i remain it like how it is now? I seriously dont know.

You said you loved me.I hoped it was true.I realized it wasn't when you said we were through.Why did you leave me?What didn't I do right?I was here for you always,Everday and every night.I cried tears for you.Tears I never cried before.I stayed faithful and loved you.But yet my heart you tore.I gave up everything.I let go of my past.Why? Because I hoped and prayed or love would last.Yet in the end it didn't and I don't know what to do.I'm trying to get over it but i'm so lost without you.Why did you leave me?I've never been hurt so bad.Why did you leave me?Don't you realize you were all I had? Hais, you seriously made my life miserable. Argh ! Ever since you left me, i've been living in agony ! Sad-ded DDDDDD:

&&& WOOTS, I'M LIKE GOING GENTING NOW HEEHS ! BYE, I'M RETURNING BACK ON SUNDAY :DDDDDDDDDD

Thats all (:

2009-02-23T06:25:00.001-08:00

Hellos :DDDDDDDDDDDD

I'm Back Finally (((:

Went Genting with mum & friends last two days.

the trip was kinda fun but also kinda bored.

laughs*

its been months since i saw them mans !

&&& to all my sisters.

JOYNEOLIPING, FELICIATHAMMUNYEE, FIONALIMYUNRU, KOSIPEI, JOVIN......

Sis, im sorry for not meeting up with you lately due to some reasons too. && partly because my exams are round the corner & i also wish to stay at home to revise on my studies thats why didnt met up with you girls. so sorry my dear.

But i promised by this weekend i would surely meet up with all of your yeahs :DDD

I SIMPLY JUST LOVE ALL OF YOUR (((((((((:

&& KOSIPEI, FIONALIMYUNRU, FELICIATHAMMUNYEE, JOYNEOLIPING &&& JOVIN, I'M REALLY MISSING EACH AN EVERYONE OF YOUR {{{:

TO "someone in my class" :

hey girl, we all treated you like a sister despite you having an attitude problem & terrible character which i cant describe. But yet ? you treat us like a shit !

I'm not afraid to say that im tired of all these alrights. ENOUGH MEANS ENOUGH !

I suppose you really ought to get some lessons then you will change to a better person yeahs. Hais.......

My Post !!!

I'm sad to say that im mia-ing.

i know you guys would ask me why yeahs ?

But please dont ask me why if your doesnt wish to see me sad again.

All these while, im leading a miserable && painful life. I SWEAR !

I can feel that im not myself anymore.

i dont know why.

Seriously, i feels that STEPHANIETANSHIYA whom known as baobeiisteph is isnt the same anymore.

I simply feels that things werent exactly the same as it was anymore.

I often ask myself cant i just forget the past & carry on with my life ahead ?!?!?

But i really cant. All thanks to "SOMEONE" !

You gave me a new life but in the end it ends up with a tragedy !

WHAT THE HELL IS IT MANS ?!?!?

If you cant keep your promises to me what for still act as one ?

Hais, but another side i also ask myself if i still have feelings for you .

Starting i dont hate you badly but oppositely i hate myself badly for not being a good girlfriend, even though others told me i werent in the wrong, is "HIM" whom have not treasured me. But now, come to think of it, i feels that im rather silly though. && also up till now, i still dunno why i just cant hate you even though you seems to made me lead a miserable life all these while, similarily, as if making my happy life turns out to be a tragedy !

Aww, WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY ?!?!?!?!?!?

Now, i might act as if nothing had happened, but honestly speaking, im aint alright at all. Hais !

I GUESS THATS ALL I WISH TO SAY .

THATS ALL (((:

TAKECARES.

2009-01-19T04:32:00.000-08:00

Hellos Peeps (: I'm Back :DDDD &&& Pictures Of The Day.

Say Hellos To My Dear, Noven Sim Beng Hui (((((:

Baby, i seriously love you more & more (((((: && horhs, thanks for accompany go report today :DDDDD gees, seriously you treat me really very good ohs ! I appreciate it lot my dear :DDDD
Baby, im cherishing you more & more too * Hohohohos, Love you to the ma & to the pa ohs :DDDDDDD &&&& tmr im seeing you again woots :DDDDD Heehs ((((: You're just my sweet lil boy {{{{{: && im so glad you are coming to my school & house here to accompany me heehs * Baby, Iloveyou & imissyou :DDD You're just my baby love ! Iloveyou, NOVEN SIM BENG HUI {{{{{:

I guess you people are looking forward to know what had happened today yeahs ?
Heehs, here it goes ((((((((:
In school at about 1.35pm, baby rang me up & message me saying he had reached my bus-stop le. But "baby sorry, i let you waited for about almost an hour. Cause my assy discipline master wanted to talk to me )))): thats why my dear. && furthermore i rushed home for a bath as its just opposite my school . I promised you i will not let you wait for me too long anymore (: "
&&& i finally met up with baby at 2.25pm together with my mummy :DDDDDDD && we took a cab to Jurong Police Station there, as im going to CNB to report. && just when we reached there, i doesnt know why i suddenly became so afraid. humph ! &&& i swear staying in the lock up is no joke & no fun. I seriously regretted all those things i had done. but whats the use ? its all too late for regretting right now. Hais. && also my poor baby gotta wait outside as there side do not have enough pass to let him in . HUMPH ! so no choice but have to let baby wait outside. &&& Infact, im actually considered lucky enough that my IO did not shout at me, as he says im actually not that bad. LOLS ! but i swear his voice was damn freaking loud alrights, because before entering his room, i already can hear he's shouting at some other ppl whom were also drug abuse. &&& i eventually did promised my IO that i wont do anymore silly stuffs already, but sadly to say that my case hasnt been closed. humph ! But i had learnt my lesson already. Seriously. fter leving the police sttion, Mummy, Me & Baby went to had our lunch as Mummy & Baby was hungry , Hohohohos :DDDDDD fter tht we cabbed down back to tpy, && i forgotten that i've gotta buy my books & pens for schooling :DDDD so i went to popular & buy. && horhs my assy baby keep disturb me, ass him :DDDDDD && you know what ? he says that he's coming to my house here & find me tmr :DDDDDD gees, im so happy ! simply love NOVEN SIM BENG HUI so-so much (((((:
&& then after that, baby trained back to woodland ((((: && before he went into the station, he gave me his sweet lil kiss :DDDDDDDDD Sweet yeahs ? Heehs, ilovehim. Hmmmm, &&& also My derest sister, Felicia Tham Mun Yee , Do you know how sad am i feeling right now ? sister, i swear you're my precious sister forever ! no matter you go in or what i'll still love you as much as like now ! && sis, even if you go in, i'll still gonna wait for you to come out , no matter how much time it takes, i'll still wait. Sister, i promised you even if you go in, you'll still be my best sister ever (((((((: Hais, Currently Shag ! I Love Felicia Tham Mun Yee Sister :DDDDD "GOD" Is Unfair ! Why does god loves making my sister to suffer ? why does him loves torturing her ? why does god loves playing gmes with my sister ? WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY ?!?!?!?!? Humph.
&&& I'm Looking Forward To See My Baby Tomorrow :DDDDD

To Spammers :Hellos Spammers ! Please stop being a "KIDDO" please for goodness sake ! I've said it times & times again tht i wont be affected by what you people have said. I would only treat all that as rubbish ! && Come on, by doing all these, you're not making me angry but you're just making me laugh behind my keyboard :DDDDDDD Its so "Hilarious" ohs (((((: && I wont even give any of my attention to you "KIDDO" either (: hmmm, i thought i said it lots of times? ohs, i forget you're just DOG ! dog just tends to forget fast, like you ((: gees. && so what im fat ? does it concerns you, DOG ? hohohos, as i've said, you're just making me laugh behind my keyboard (: Pity you Dogs ! &&& also did i say im skinny ? no i dint, i also do confess im fat (: but its just none of your business. so just mind your own business & stop acting like a "KIDDO" (: thats my advice to you :DDD GEES, its just so "Hilarious" (((((((((: Funny woots, && im in kinda good mood today so im glad & willing to entertain Dogs at this moment (((((((: && anyways i guess you're being jealous of me ohs ((((: Hahas, LOLS * && btw, Pigs are actually cute (: if not why people just loves buying piglet stuffs ? ohs, so you're infact saying im cute ehs((:&&& let me tell you once again, Pigs is better chicken (: cos pigs is cute unlike you chicken, TIMID ! just loves to critisize people & not say it out face to face ! PITY YOU CHICKEN :DDDDD hmm, saying your dogs are infact too kind. cos dogs do have a good point & thats Loyal ((: so i've gotta be mean to you & say you're infact a chicken "Coward" (((: Hmm, && horhs thanks for your compliment ohs (((: INDIRECTLY saying im cute {{{: gees, lols * So even if you "DOGS, CHICKENS & KIDDOS" still wish to continue these stupid acts, go ahead (: But let me tell you, you "DOGS, CHICKENS && KIDDOS" are just making me laugh more behind my keyboard :DDDDD Hmmm, & hey Spammers, i was thinking why were your just so "Coward" ? If you h ave the guts to spam my blog, why dont you have the guts to come out & entertain me even further ? Laughs * Coward will always remain as a Coward ((((: Infact, maybe your are worst than a CHICKENS ((((((((((((: Simply pity your :DDDDD How pitiful it is ohs ((: && how embarrasing are your uhhs ? you all are just "Coward Shit" . I'm sorry to say this, but im just stating the facts :DDDDD Hope you guys wont get a heart attack ohs ! Heehs :DDDD Hohohohohos (((((((((((:

2009-01-16T05:59:00.000-08:00

Hellos Peeps :DDDDDDDD
I'm Back (((((:
But........( No Mood )

Say Hellos To My Precious Boyfriend, Noven Sim Beng Hui, below ((((:

Baby, imissyoualot &&iloveyoutoo :DDD

loveyouso-somuch !

Baby, i seriously cherish you alot, && its the truth, im not kidding ohs !

You're my one & only baby in my heart {{{:

I'm just so glad to found you & met you.

So glad to have you by my side :DDDDDD

I just feel so blessed right now .

&&& This time, i must really thanks god & fate to let us met .

Therefore, we then could be couple ((((((((:

Baby, because of you, i've changed myself to a better person.

&& i hope you would changed yourself to a better person because of me :DDD

You're very important to me, && i hope so am i important to you .

I dont care what person you were last time, && i dont care your past.

Now, i only care whats now & the future of ours *
So i hope you can keep your promises to me & those promises you've given me, i seriously hope you would not break it.

Baby, you makes a part in my life.

No other guys can replace you at all .

I just wish you to understand that no matter what you've done last time or what, i wont mind & i also wont care much about the past. But i only hope that from now on, you will be truthfully to me & will not leave me. So i hope you wont just give empty promises to me alrights baby ? iloveyoualot, really lot !

seriously, im aint kidding my dear (((((:

IMISSYOU,LOVEYOU&NEEDYOU :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

NOVEN SIM BENG HUI, ILOVEYOU*

You're irreplaceble {{{:

&& you'll always remains in my thoughts & heart.

My whole heart & mind is only full of you :DDDDDD

Say Hellos To My Precious Sister, Felicia Tham Mun Yee, below (((((:

SISTER,ILOVEYOU ((((((((:

SISTER,IMISSYOU ((((((((:

SISTER,INEEDYOU ((((((:

You're irreplaceable ohs , my dear sister :DDDDDDD

Thats all {{{{{{{:

Takecares (((:

ahlatothemax !

angry* dulan* bombom* poing oh*

2009-01-15T00:21:00.000-08:00

I'm back with a bad mood .
No pictures to upload so therefore i uploaded one of my old pictures (:

I'm annoyed by those bunch of useless fellows out there that had spammed me these few days ohs ! But pls get this right in your freako head, im not annoyed by what your had said but im annoyed by all your stupid acts ! Cause i seriously hated dogs like you this kinda of people, thats all i've gotta say. &&&& also for you "Spammers" information, if you people still wanna continue doing all these silly acts then go ahead, i wont blame you but these shows me that you're in fact " KIDDOS & also DOGS. " I just wish to say that i dont even give a damn about it as all these are really lame. cos, whatever your said, it means nothing to me. i can only say, TOO Bad & TOO Sad to you people ! hmmm, I'll prove your wrong in fact. & i will take it as your are out of jealousy ! && so if you people still wanna spam me & continue your useless acts, this proves that your are DOGS ! a dog who dared to say all those things in my tagboard & does not dare to come out talk . Look at you people, How embarrassing are your ! you people thought i would be dumbfolded after seeing all these tags yeahs ? hohos, but too sad to say im not . Sad isnt it ?hmmm, come on mans ! Grow up please. I wont be affected by those words in my tagboard. Laughs* Its so-so damn "Hilarious" ohs :DDDDDDDDDD LOLS ! So whatever you people said, i wont even feel furious at all but oppositely, Hilarious. I felt that way cos, you people have nothing better to do but loves doing all these Kiddo's acts (: So sadly & sorry to say that you people are "KIDDOS" && no offence about it as its the facts ! && To people whom said i'm actually acting to have a good english standard, i'm also not surprised to hear that because or perhaps your english standard is worst than a three year old kid & here's comes again i guess you "KIDDOS" are saying out of "Jealousy" again yeahs ! Hohohohos, all i can say is dont be jealous larhs, go read more english books & try to buck up on your studies in order to improve from your "Horrible english standard to a Better english standard." && also at the first place did i say my english standard is good, hohohos. Hmmmm, if im not wrong, i guess i dint remember saying it ohs. Laughs* anyway for your information, this is not call good english, i'm just expressing my feelings, so this tells me that your english standard is so-so called "Really Cannot Make It" ohs! Hmmm, How Pitiful You People Were Yeahs ? How Sad It Is Uhhs !
BUNCH OF BITCHES & USELESS KIDDOS WHOM LOVES DOING SILLY NONSENSE *
I PITY YOUR OHS !

Say Hellos To My Precious Baby, NOVEN SIM BENG HUI, below ((((((((:

Baby, iloveyoualot ((((((((:
muacks *
You're my only one in my heart ohs, my boy .
I really do treasure you & our relationship :DDDDDDDD
I believe we can last long yeahs, my dear !
Without you in my life, i guess i will just turn insane *
You have changed my dark world of life into a brighter side of life.
I'm so glad to have you around & so glad to have you as mine (((((:
Baby, imissyouohs ! i miss your hugs & kisses.i miss your tender touch, i miss your face & your everything :DDDDDDDD
My Dear, as my new life starts to unfold, && im learning how to take hold.
There are times i dont know what to do, but i know i can always turn to you {{{:
Our relationship is one of a kind & one most people never find :DDD
I'm so glad that you've come into my life & filled my life with so much delight (:
You're always in my dreams & you're always in my thoughts. You're the reason why my heart does'nt seems to stop .
Words just cannot explain how thankful i am to you (((:
I love you with all my heart & i knew i would right from the start, Baby :DDD
&&& Baby,
Thanks for lending me your shoulder to lean on when i cried.
Thanks for lending me your hand to guide me along the way.
Thanks for giving me advices when i'm confused.
Thanks for teaching me whats right & whats wrong.
Thanks Baby For Everything :DDDDDD
I want you to be convinced that my feelings for you are true && i believed you've been convinced already yeahs ((((((:
I just love you for who you are, my dear {{{:
You will alwys be the guy who will stand out from the rest .
You're just my sweet lil boyfriend, NOVEN SIM BENG HUI (((((:
You & me forever till the end .
13.01.2009 *

Say hellos to my sweetest sister, Felicia Tham Mun Yee, below :DDDDDD
Sister, iloveyou && imissyou :DDDDDD
Sister's not only for now but for life (((((:
I just love for who she is {{{{{{:
Sisters irreplaceable !
&& she's the reason why my life is now totally complete (((((((:
SISTER, You're more & more important to me, I can't lose you oh :DDDDDD
Loveyousis :DDDDDD

Thats all {{{:

Takecares .

ahlatothemax !

angry* dulan* bombom* poing oh*

2009-01-13T07:10:00.000-08:00

HELLOS PEEPS (((:
I'm Back :DDDDDDDDDDD
Do you people wanna know whats happening today ?
Hahahas {{{{{{:
Its all written below uhhs :DDDDDDDDDDDD
&&& there's some pictures below uhhs .

Today, My Sis, Felicia Tham Mun Yee, asked me if i wanna meet her & her stead, steven, whom is my daddy too at bugis, but unfortunately i cant cos i have a short remedial in school too.
SORRY SIS )))): WILL MEET YOU SOON, MY PRECIOUS SIS !
after school, went home changed then go find my baby, NOVEN SIM BENG HUI ((((:
Then go baby house slack till 6 plus.
&&& then i cabbed home :DDDDDDD
Took dinner with Papa &&& Mama && then fell soundly sleep on the bed {{{{{:
Roughly about 9.35pm, saw baby message, saying he had reached home as he had went out with his friends after i left (((:
Gees, therefore at about 9.40pm, rang baby up (((:
&&& chat till about 10 plus like this, then we hang up, as he's going out again. assy baby of mine {{{{{{{:
I love noven sim beng hui (((((((:&&& imisshimtoo :DDDDDD

Say hellos to my dearest baby, NOVEN SIM BENG HUI, below :DDDDDD

Baby ((((((:

To you, I must confess
I miss you very much!
I miss your kiss! I miss your hug!
I miss your tender touch!

I love your smile and amber eyes,
That brought me first to you.
I love that you're a gentleman,
Dependable and true.
I love the jokes and anecdotes,
You can't tell sitting down.
I love the way you comfort me,
And kiss away my frowns.
For every kiss,

I take a second to say a prayer.

Each time you hold me,

I takea minute to thank God for you.

For every hour we spend together,

I wish for more hours in the day.

And for each day that we're apart,

I miss you so much my heart can't bear it.

Love knows no boundaries.

Love knows no distance.

Fate brought us together,

and only God can tear us apart.

Everything you are,
everything you do,
each act of kindness,
each look,
each touch,
every smile,
every word,
all combine to make me love you more each day.

You clothe me when I shiver with your ever warm embrace.

you're the moon that lights my way,

that makes me feel very gay.

You wipe the tears on my cheeks,

the tears of joy that I've seek,

and it's you, my love, my divine,that makes me shine so bright.

You're the sun in my sky staring at me with all your might,

guiding me through the days with your ever shining light.

For the first time in my life,

I found my love and my life without you I will cry,

for you my love I will die!

Love used to be at the back of my mind.

Dead and lifeless like the sun with no shine.

Then you came along and showed me love is beautiful.

You brought me to life, so strong and spiritual.

The day that I saw you, my heart melted.

It was true love, because I felt it.

You changed my life in so many ways.

Some of them I can't even explain.

When I think of you, the world just leaves.

From my mind and from my dreams.

I see someone that is caring and full of heart.

Someone daring, someone special, someone to share my heart.

I made this poem only for you.

To think of me when you're feeling blue.

I will never stop loving you.You are so amazingly sweet (:

I love you more than all the stars in the sky.

I love you more as each moment passes us by.

I love you more with every breath I take.

I love you more with each promise we make.
I need you like a flower needs the rain.

I need you for you can wash away my pain.

I need you more each day I need you for you are so wonderful, in every single way.
I miss you more than ever now.

I miss you because I really need you somehow.

I miss you and your touch.

I miss you for to me, you mean so much.
I want you to caress my lips the way you always do.

I want you to look into my eyes and see my love for you.

I want you to hold me close to your heart.

I want you to know that I love you, need you, miss you, and want you.

My heart so dark and gray.

Sees light and colour now today.

Your love has unlocked a door.

To the love I so long wished for.

I thought it was only in fairy tales.

But true love, it prevails.

I was empty from heart to soul.

Your love made me complete and whole.

I never thought I'd feel this way.

In love, complete, alive today.

My body awakened with just one touch.

I love that feeling oh so much.

I know now love is real and true.

For today, I have love, and I have you:DDDDD

ILOVEYOU, NOVEN SIM BENG HUI (((((((((((:

&&& Say hellos to my precious sister, Felicia Tham Mun Yee, below {{{{:

Sister (((((((:

Because you are my sister,

my life is enriched in a myriad of ways.

Like a cool breeze on a sweltering day,

like a ray of sunshine parting glowering clouds,you lift me up.

In good times, we soar,like weightless balloons over neon rainbows.

In bad times, you are soothing balm for my pummeled soul.

I wonder if you are aware of the bright seeds you are sowing in me.

I'm a better person for knowing you, so that everyone I interact with, is touched by your good effect on me.

You relax me, refresh me, renew me.

Your bounteous heart envelops me in joy and love and peace.

May your life be filled with dazzling blessings, just as I am blessed by being your sister.

It's such a pleasure and a joy,

To have a sister like you.

You always care, you're always there,

You say the right things, too!
You make me smile when I am low,

You're just a pure delight.

We talk a lot about everything,

You make my life so bright!
I hope that I am giving you,

Some joy and happiness,

Because you mean so much to me,

More than I can express!
We share so much of our lives,

Our joy and also our pain.

Without you as my sister,

I just might go insane!
You know what I’m talking about,

You’ve been through big things, too.

Yet you cheer me when I’m happy,

You comfort me when I’m blue.
Your giving does not go unnoticed,

I’d be lost without you, sister.

What we have together,

No one else can comprehend.

I always dreamed someone swell would turn up,

Who’d consider my feelings routinely,

Who would share lots of stuff without being gruff,

And if they disagreed would not do it meanly.
Then you came along and my wishes came true.

You’re a sister who I trust and I treasure.

You always give help and I know that you care.

You’re my precious sister and it gives me great pleasure(((:

ILOVEYOU,Felicia Tham Mun Yee :DDDDDDDDDDD

&&& IMISSYOUTOO {{{{{{{{:

thats all :DDDDD

takecares !

ahlatothemax ((:

Hohohos {{{{:

2009-01-11T07:22:00.000-08:00

Hellos My Dear Readers (((((:
I'm back to blogging again yeahs !
Hahahahahas, must be looking forward to know whats going today uhhs :DDD
Shall let you know now {{{{:

Laughs*

today woke up at 9plus.

&& then use computer till about 4pm, && then i took a cab down to bugis to meet my Dearest Sister, FELICA THAM MUN YEE && also her stead whom is my daddy, STEVEN !

heehs, its been weeks i last saw time &&& guess what ?

i miss them like fuck ! hahahahahahs.

but at least today we've met up, cause i seems to find out that since school re-open, we have hardly met. but its alrights because i will still try my best at least once in a week i will go find them :DDDDDDDD

because i wont let our sistership drift !

my love for FELICA THAM MUN YEE is bigger than the sky, wider than the oceam && deepest than the sea (((((((:

heehs, at bugis, i finally saw many familiar faces for example all my brothers & also my kor, EDWIN .&& also Shanice (((: heehs, had quite alot of gossip about "SOMEONE", whom i dislike alot, so as my sister ! hahahahahas.

i miss shanice (((((: havent seen her after my chalet.

gees. at about 6pm, i went to buy a birthday cake for my dad ((:

his birthday is on this coming Tuesday, but i've decided to celebrate early .

gees, HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA (((((: ILOVEYOU.

&& also that stupid brother of mine, LUZIFA ! he loves pinching my cheeks man((:

AWW. heehs, but he's good to me ! my best brother i have ever had in my life :DDDDD

at about 6.30pm, i cabbed home.

HOME SWEET HOME :DDDD

&& all my relatives are at home waiting for me to celebrate PAPA'S BIRTHDAY !

heehs. THATS ALL for today(((((:

Say Hello To My Dearest Silly Assy Baby Of Mine, NOVEN SIM BENG HUI (((((:

Baby, im loving you more & more each day.

Each days goes by, i feel that you're more & more important to me.

You've become part of my life already :DDDDDDD

Baby, you're my precious.

You have given me a second chance in life.

Sometime before you I couldn't cop with the strife.

You've given me that love I dreamed of forever.

Happiness I been united with now that we're together.

You've touched my heart so deeply with your gentle touch.

To world I will never deny that I love you so much.

Words can't explain how thankful I am of you.

You have brought my smiles to overcome my blue.

The moments that we have shared the memories we make.

I promise your heart won't shatter or even break.

I miss you so much when you are not near.

You have made my life complete from once an empty soul.

You will always be the guy who will stand out from the rest.

I'll never forget each memory that you made the best.

Forever in my heart baby with this love I'll always keep.

I'll always have you in my heart even when I'm asleep (((:

&&& Baby, i just wanna let you know that, You're always in my dreams,You're always in my thoughts.

You're the reason my heart doesn't stop.

You and me forever,And always to the end.

I can't live without you, Because you are more than my friend.

I love you with all my heart,And I knew I would from the start.

As time goes on you and me can't be apart :DDDDDD

&&& Say Hellos To My Precious Sister :DDDD FELICIA THAM MUN YEE !

Sister, im really glad to have you as my sister (((:

&&& finally todya we had met up again !

I'm so happy :DDDDDD

I also seriously hope you like the gift i gave you today {{{:

Sister, i've something to tell right deeply from my heart .

&&& that is..............

TO: FELICIA THAM MUN YEE SISTER (((((:

we had our ups, we had our downs.

we had the smiles and we had the frowns.

the good and the bad.

the happy and sad.

we conquered them all together, thats why we were best sisters forever.

you kept me standing and never let me fall, we really had been through it all.

you were there when i needed to chat, i really cant thank you enough for that.

&&& There are so many things I'd like to say.

But that would take me all day.

Now I wonder where to start.

Guess I'll say whats in my heart.

There is one thing I know that's true.

I'm so blessed to have a sister like you.

Thanks for always being there.

And showing me how much you care.

As my new life starts to unfold, And I am learning how to take hold.

There are times I don't know what to do,But I know I can always turn to you.

Our sistership is one of a kind,One most people never find.

I never knew from the start,Just how much you would touch my heart.

I'm so glad you came into my life,You have filled it with so much delight.

The connection we have, was not planned.

But you'll always be right here in my heart.

You'll always be my Sister,Forever and always until the end :DDDDD

Sister,iloveyou.

ILOVEYOU,IMISSYOU,IWANTYOU &&& INEEDYOU ((((((:

THATS ALL PEOPLE ((:
TAKECARES.
AHLATOTHEMAX !
ANGRY *DULAN* BOMBOM* POING OH*

2009-01-10T08:36:00.000-08:00

HELLOS PEEPS (:
I'M BACK !
Some Pictures Taken Of The Day:DDDDD

Say Hello To My Silly Baby, NOVEN SIM BENG HUI, below (((:

Baby, i miss you to the ma & to the pa alot )))):

Laughs*

Anyways, im going see you soon mans !

So happy, & excited :DDDDDD

Gees, iloveyoubaby !

You this silly ass, keep work work work !

Better have your meals eaten punctually alrights (((:

Imissyou,Iloveyou,Ineedyou &&& Lastly Iwantyou.

&&& also lastly but not least, iloveyou, FELICIATHAMMUNYEE, whom is my dearest sister :DDDDD THE SISTER WHOM I DOTES ON ALOT.

Sis, iloveyou&imissyou. muacks sis, you're irreplaceable. im loving & cherishing you now till forever.Heehs ((((((((: Seeing you soon yeahs my dear ((: && I'VE A SURPRISE FOR YOU SOON AGAIN ! MUACKS.

THATS ALL (:

TAKECARES.

AHLATOTHEMAX !

ANGRY*DULAN*BOMBOM*POING OH*

2009-01-09T01:45:00.000-08:00

Hellos Peeps :DDDDDDDDDD
Hohohohos, im back to blog again yeahs !
hahahahas, i know you guys are looking forward to see whats going on today uhhs ?
Laughs*
&&& also there's many-many pictures taken of me today ohs :DDDDDD
Wahahhahahahahs:X

Hmmmmm, Today was a boring day for me.

&& also its been a hectic weekend for me ))))):

Didn't attend school today due to no mood.

SAD .

Aww, my life is full of sadness & regrets !

Hais, i wonder if i can continue to act if as if nothing had happened anot ?!?!?!?

I wonder, seriously.

These few months , i had been treating as if nothing has happened at all.

But its all just appearance, right inside my heart, it seriously pain alot !

My heart is aching .

I'm lost, && it seems that i've been living in a dark world all these while.

My mind is totally blank right now !

I know its no use & worth for me to continue behaving like this, but i just cant helped it.

Hais, I'M SHAG, LOST &&& CONFUSED, right now ! Just as simple as that.

humph ))))))))))):

All i can say is that, how you've treated me, i'll treat you back the same !

Zzzzzzzzz..................

Humph, i seriously miss my past in Chij Sec Tpy !

As in, i do miss some of the teachers in there because i know not all teachers are unreasonable.

I do confess, my ex-school DM was indeed unreasonable, but somehow she still treated me good.

I miss the most is Grace & co. &&&& also Nancy & cliques.

Seriously, i do miss those times.

Yes, i do admit coming into First Tpy Sec is very relaxing, as in studies are must easier, && rules are not that strict.

but i still prefer my past in Chij sec. because i can concentrate more on studying.

&&& i love getting along with my cliques still ,even though i get along well with my new cliques in First Toa Payoh Sec, which is my current school right now.

If i were to made a choice to go back to which school, i would definitely choose back CHIJ SEC TPY , but i know its totally impossible.

Hais, all i can blame is only myself for it.

I blame myself for acting rashly.

I blame myself for everything.

I kept asking myself why cant i just study har & create less problems ?!?!?!?

Hais, but whats the use of regretting right now ?

its all too late, really too late !

God & teachers gave me many chances but i just refused to treasure it & made use of it.

Opposite, i kept having a thinking that i wasnt in the wrong.

Humph !

Well, indeed the principle & staffs of my current school right now treats me well, but im kinda still not used to the environment up till now.hais.

Maybe its time for me to let go of the past. let me start myself anew & start my life afresh uhhs .

Hais, Those cliques of mine in Chij sec tpy, i hope you're are doing fine.

PLEASE DO STUDY HARD & NOT WASTE TIME ON PLAYING ANYMORE , SERIOUSLY !

&&& also steffi, heard you're quitting school uhhs, aww.

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY !

why are you just so stubborn ?!?!?!?

All i can say is that you'll surely regret ! trust me.

All i can say is that, Take me for exaple barhs.

Look at me, i once also like you, wanted to quit school but yet when i've got expelled, i started to know how to think.

What i want to tell you is that if you really wants to quit schooling, then think THRICE & NOT JUST TWICE *

hmm, thats all i wanna say to you, STEFFI, whom was onced my clique.

&& LASTLY, I MISS YOU ALOT, GRACE NGIAM !

I MISS THOSE PAST IN CLASS WITH YOU MANS !

THOSE FUN WE'VE HAD , THOSE LAUGHTERS WE'VE HAD !

HUMPH, JUST WANNA TELL YOU THAT ALL THESE WILL ALWAYS BE KEPT IN MY HEART :DDDDDDDD

&&&&&& I hope you're doing fine too yeahs. study hard !

free shall go find you barhs (((((((:

&&& PLEASE SAY HI TO MY ASSY BABY, NOVEN SIM BENG HUI, BELOW (((:

NOVEN SIM BENG HUI (((:

My assy baby :DDDDDD

Laughs*

look at some of my pictures above & see what i've wrote on it :DDDDDDD

Hahahahahahas !

i bet you will be damn fucking touched cans {{{{:

Hohohohos, aww. you're working right now. hais, im at home missing you like fuck cans !

zzzz..........assy baby of mine !

heehs, so sweet of me yeahs :DDDDDDDDD

Lalalalalalalalalas ~

I MISS YOU TO THE MA & TO THE PA LARHS !

STUPID YOU ((((((:

&&& PLEASE SAY HI TO MY SISTER, FELICIA THAM MUN YEE, BELOW ((:

&&& Lastly but not least, Felicia Tham Mun Yee, ILOVEYOU *

Gees, you're my dearest & precious sister which i've ever had in my whole life.

hahahahahas ! Hey everyone listen up alrights, She's the sister whom i dotes alot {{{:

Sister, im starting to miss you like hell uhhs.

Hahahahahahs, im looking forward to meet you soon mans !

&&&&&& im treasuring & cherishing you already yeahs, my dearest lil sister :DDDDDDD

muacks,aisinile ! heehs ((((((((((:

THATS ALL ((:

TAKECARES.

AHLATOTHEMAX !

ANGRY*DULAN*BOMBOM*POING OH*

2009-01-08T02:53:00.000-08:00

Hellos Peeps :DDDDDDDD
Stephanie Is Back To Blogging Again (((:
Gees {{{:
Some of mine pictures are below !

NOVEN SIM BENG HUI (((((:

My dearest silly assy boy :DDDDD

Laughs*

Aww, Im missing him mans {{{{:

SHIT MANS !

Im missing him like hell lorhs.

Hahahahahahhas (((((((((:

NOVEN SIM, I miss you to the ma & to the pa cans :DDDDD

heehs, laalalalalalalas~

I just simply miss you, thats as simple as ABC (:

&&&& horhs, i believe after you look at those pictures below, i guess you'll be so-so damn touched uhhs !

hahahhahahas;DDDDDDD

its just so sweet yeahs {{{{{{{:

LAUGHS*

Lastly but not least, I LOVE MY SISTER, FELICIA THAM MUN YEE (((((((((:

LOVE HER ALOT ALOT ALOT !

She's my dearest precious sister woots :DDDDDD

heehs ! lovehermans.

THATS ALL :DDDDD

TAKECARES.

AHLATOTHEMAX !

ANGRY*DULAN*BOMBOM*POING OH*

2009-01-03T06:34:00.000-08:00

Hellos Peeps :DDDDDDDDD
I'm Back Again !

I'm seriously damn shag.
Each day goes by, im getting more & more shag.
I doesnt know what to do, hais.
All i know is that i'm very confused, lost, shag & stressed right now !
Humph ! I'm in a loss .
&&& also shall i give it up seriously ?
My mind are in a blank, i seriosuly do not know how to make a decision .
I'm afraid i'll live in regret one day.
I'm so scared things will turn out ugly for me .
aww.
Just so lost !
How i wish i could be like the past.
How i wish i could still be a kiddo.
How i wish i could live wihout stressed.
Hais, i know its all impossible !
Argh, feels like ending my life right now seriously, i aint kidding alrights )))):
I wonder when can i stop all this torture uhhs ?
I wonder if god could stop all these torture ?
I seriously beg God not to play me anymore please.
I beg him not to torture me anymore please.
I beg him not to always make my life miserable for me can !
hais, seriously.
WHEN COULD ALL THESE STOP ?!?!?!?
I COULDNT SLEEP AT ALL NIGHTS !
MY TEARS ARE OFTEN ROLLED DOWN EVERYDAY !
Hais.
One word to describe about my feelings right now is that i'm "SHAG" !

Say Hi To My Assy Lil Dude Of Mine Above !

He's Noven Sim Beng Hui ((((:

Laughs*

Boy, i miss you to the ma & to the pa mans :DDDDD

heehs, thanks for giving me all those care & concern all these while.

i seriously thank you alot.

i also do appreciate it alot too, my dear.

You made me realised that there's actually still a person whom still care & love me so much & that is "YOU" ((((((:

I'm so-so freaking touched okays !

I'm so touched by your sincere words & actions.

Boy, i will keep my promises to you.

All those promises are not meant to be broken .

But you also gotta abide those promises that you've given me okays :DDDDD

Hahahahas !

I'm trying to change myself already right now ((:

gees, must be touched right ?!?!?!?

hahahahahs, dunnid you to say i also know ehs {{{:

You confirm very touched want yeahs !

Hahahahahahs, i guess right yeahs ((((((((((:

Heehs !

Just wanna say thanks to you & im seriously very touched by you, my dear :DDD

Much loves x33333

Lastly but not least is that i love my dearest sister, Felicia Tham Mun Yee :DDDDDDD

She's always in my mind !

I'M GONNA TREASURE & CHERISH HER LIKE HELL :DDD

&&&& She's just so sweet to me.

gees, loveheralot ! SERIOUSLY.

Sister Forever :DD

She's always there when im in need.

She's always there to cheer me up when im depressed.

She's the one whom is willing to go through thick & thin with me (((((:

This is then what i called sistership:DDDDD

I love felicia tham mun yee {{{{{{:

That's all ((((:

takecares.

ahlatothemax !

angry*dulan*bombom*poing oh*

2009-01-02T06:41:00.000-08:00

Hellos Peeps :DDDDD
I'm Back To Update My Blog Again Ohs !
Below Are Some Of My Pictures & My Feelings Written Down ((((:

Woots, School Has Start Ohs ((((((:

Hahahahahahas !

These Two Pics Above Are Me Wearing School Uniform Ohs :DDD

Laughs*

I'm Gonna Be A Good Girl & Study Real Hard !

I'm Serious, Aint Kidding Ohs :DDDDDDD

Heehs (((((((:

This is my dearest sister, FELICIA THAM MUN YEE :DDDDD

I adores her alot, seriously ((((((((:

Sister, im really touched by all your words to me, really.

All i can say is a big "THANK YOU" to you, as all along you've been guiding me all the way through, giving me so many advices & also always being there for me (((:

Sister, i really can say you're a great sister to me.

Yes, i do agree sisterhood are drifting & i believe you think so too yeahs.

But rememeber whats our promises ?

Heehs, that is no matter what happens, as long as you have me & i have you, that's enough !

Sister, thanks for being with me there today .

Yes, i do confess im indeed sad today & not only sad, but its totally hurt.

Thats why i cant control my tears. HUMPH !
I'm sorry, i dont meant to cry but its just that im too hurt.

I know seeing me cry makes your heart aches alot, but do you have any idea that when you feeling down, my heart aches more ?

Sister, my love for you is deeper than the sea, wider than the sky && bigger than the ocean {{{{{:

Seriously, without you sis, i wonder how could i survive ?

how could i still live in this world mans ?!?!?

aww, without you, life is meaningless.

As what you've said, i doesnt know we could be that close until today.

I'm beginning to treasure you more & more each day goes by :DDD

Sister, no matter how much i love you, Words Can Never Even Say, Only My Actions Can Prove It To You ((: && I BELIEVE YOU'VE BEEN CONVINCED BY MY ACTIONS YEAHS :))

Sis, You often put a smile on my face && i promised you i'll never let our sisterly love drift .

Never At All !

You're Just A Sweet Lil Sis To Me :DDDDDDDD

Thanks my dear sis .

I'm Gonna Let Our Sisterly Love Continue Till The End Of Our Life (((:

Thanks sis for often cheering me up when im down,
Thanks for going through thick & thin with me,

Lending me a shoulder to lean on when i cried,

Lending me your hand to guide me along the way,

Giving me advices when im lost & confused,

Teaching me whats right & whats wrong (:

Sister, Thanks For All These Things ThatYou've Done For Me !

&& Sis, I hope you like those things i gave it to you today ((:

ILOVEYOU !

Hmmm, anyway, I just wanna let you know i seriously do Treasure & Cherish you as my DEAREST SISTER :DDDDDDDDDDD

FELICIA THAM MUN YEE, YOU'RE MY DEAREST SIS :DDDDDDDDD

I LOVE FELICIA THAM MUN YEE SISTER ((((((((:

WOAINI, MUACKS !!!

ILOVEYOU,IMISSYOU && LASTLY, INEEDYOU !

&&& This is my silly lil assy dude of mine :DDDDDDD

Heehs (((((:

Say Hellos To Him Yeahs !

He's just so sweet to me , ohs, im beginning to miss him like fuck ((((:

Laughs* So cute of him mans :DDD

Hahahahahahahs ((((((((:

Noven Sim Beng Hui :DDDDDDDDDDDD

Miss you to the ma & to the pa lorhs.

hhahahahahahs !

Mine assy lil dude, just wanted to thank you for all those care & concern you've showed me all these while, seriously ((((:

THANKS ,MY DEAR :DDDDDDDD

MUCHLOVES&&&MISSES {{{:

ARGH ! I'M SO SHAG & HURT ))))))))))))):

SO FREAKING SAD UHHS, HUMPH !

Thats All ((((((:

Takecares !

ahlatothemax !

angry*dulan*bombom*poing oh *

Laughs*

2008-12-31T10:31:00.000-08:00

Hellos :DDDDDDD
Pictures Of 30th Dec & 31st Dec (((((:

I love my sister the most ((:

&& she is FELICIA THAM MUN YEE :DDDDDDDD

GEES ! MUACKS, WOAINI {{{:

&&& Sis, dont be sad le okays.

You still've got me (((:

I'm always here for you my dear .

anything do tell me because im willingly to be your listening ear :DDDD

Muchloves.

&&&& NOVEN SIM BENG HUI ((((((:

My silliest assy boy :DDDDDD

misses him so much !

He's just so sweet :DDDDD

Thats all ((((:

takecares.

ahla to the max.

angry*dulan*bombom*poing oh*

2008-12-29T04:05:00.000-08:00

Hellos *
I'm Back !

My dear baby sis ((((((((:

Sister, i really cant afford to lose you mans !
seriously, im aint kidding my dear. its like now i've seems to lost everything already, thats why i says i really cant afford to lose my dearest sis, &&& thats you, my dear. FELICIA THAM MUN YEE !
you're my precious sis.
you're my dearest sis.
&&& lastly you makes my day brighter :DDDDDD
you're irreplaceable.
you light my life !
&&& sister, thanks for always being there for me.
thanks for always remembering me, my dear. im so glad & touched by your actions.
&&& also sis, ever since the day i know how much important i meant to you, i swear that i wont ever leave you aloe & i promised you that i wont drift away from you anymore ((((((((:
Also sister, be assured that no matter what, i'm always standing by your side.
Sister, we've been through thick & thin through together.
No one can seperate us seriously !
I LOVE YO TO THE MA & TO THE PA MANS :))))))))))))))))))))))
SISTERS NOT FOR ONLY NOW BUT FOREVER !
ILOVEYOU,IMISSYOU,INEEDYOU * I JUST WANT FELICIA THAM MUN YEE (((:

&&& This Is The Silliest Dumbo Of Mine, NOVEN SIM :DDD

thanks for always cheering me up when im down.
really thanks alot even though im still very shag & down.
but i still do appreciate your kindness (((:
laughs*
also those promises which were made shall not be broken alrights :DDD
assy dude :DDDDDDDD
hohos, really THANKS alot all these while {{{{{{{{:
&&& also Lastly but not least, thanks for all those care & concern you've given me !

Aww, I'm Shag Larhs ))))))))))))))):

hais, im really feeling real down these few weeks .
what else can i do still mans ?
aww, another side is that sisterhood are drifting.
&&& there's many whys in my heart right now.
im really at a loss.
i doesnt know what i should do DDDDDDDDDDD:
if this continue, i think its driving me goes mad.
im aint kidding humph.
&&& its not i doesnt wannna tell you guys why im so upset .
but i just cant say it out because i believe things will eventually turn out ugly.
i doesnt wanna see that happens.
anyways, relationship sucks.
i swear, it really do SUCKS !
hais, i doesnt know what i can say much more right now, seriously.
really. im just so shag till im at a loss of words.
it has been 1 year already, && i believe its totally impossible.
i kept telling myself, im not up to it. &&& i also often tells myself not to keep day-dreaming.
i wanted to give it all up, but when comes to really wanted to give it up, there i goes hesitating again.
i kept wondering if by doing this, is it a good idea ?
im afraid i'll regret it.
but i just kept comforting myself by saying old ones dont go, new ones dont come.
hais.im just so stressed & confused. anyways put it simple words & that is i just feels that we're not as close as last time already. im serious, aint kidding !

I CAN ONLY SAY LET FATE DECIDE IT YEAHS. HAIS, THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO MUCH EITHER . &&&&& I CANT POSSIBLY CHANGE ALL THOSE FACTS WHICH ARE JUST RIGHT INFRONT OF ME. HUMPH DDDDDDDD:

I AM SHAG ! HAIS, ITS GETTING ON MY NERVES.

thats all.
ahlatothemax !
angry*dulan*bombom*poing oh*

2008-12-28T09:54:00.000-08:00

Hellos:DDDDDDDDDDD
Pictures Of The Day (((((:

I'm Shag !

&&&&&& NOVEN SIM (((((((((((((((((((:

The Silliest Dumbo Of Mine !

LOLS .

I Love Felicia Tham Mun Yee Sister :DDDDDDDDD

heehs ((:

SHAG, SHAG, SHAG !

Thats all.

ahla to the max !

angry * dulan * bombom * poing oh *

2008-12-27T06:45:00.000-08:00

Hellos:DDDDDDDDD
I'm Back ((((:

Say Hi To Me & My Sister Above :DDDDDDDDDD

heehs, love her alot, really alot .

To Baby Sister :

Sister, up till now i then know who really treat me well.

Its You ! Felicia Tham Mun Yee :DDDDDD

With you, i feel that i can be myself.

&&& sister, i seriously not gonna drift away from you anymore.

maybe yes i confess, last time i used to meet you up not often thats why i often gave you a wrong thinking that i've changed but the fact is i dint changed (((:

Sister, just now at your house there i really wished to cry it out loud but i dint, i controlled my tears.

I was indeed really damn touched by your words my dear.I hope our sistership will last forever yeahs ((((((((: && also nothing else is important other than you.

you're my precious lil sis, my dear ((((((:

Also Sister, i've got some poems to describe my feelings in my heart right now (((:

&&&&& that is.......

You were there to listen to me,

When no one else would.

You would cheer me up,

When no one else could.

Whenever I was scared,

You'd chase away my fears.

Whenever I would cry,

You'd wipe away my tears.

I can always count on you,

To help me smile again.

I've come to count on you,

Because you'll be there in the end.

So I want to say thanks,

For always being there.

And for saving me,

From my own despair.

And one final thing,

Here in this part,

I love you,

With ever piece of my heart SISTER !

You were always there for me,

Through the thick and thin.

Always you were there,

Being my best friend.

No matter what happened to us,

Or came in our way,

You never left me all alone,

You were there to stay.

I just want to tell you,

You put the smile on my face.

I want to be by your side,

I don't want to be any other place.

I just want to tell you,

You mean so much to me.

I see you as nothing less than the world,

And that I want you to see.

I just want to tell you,

I wouldn't be able to live without you.

Without the comfort you give,

There's nothing I could do.

I just want to tell you,

I thank you for being there.

You've always given me a shoulder to lean on,

And you always care.I just want to tell you,

I think of you every moment of the day.

And how much I love you,

Words could never even say.

I just want to tell you,

I love you with all my heart.

I wish for us to be together,

Never shall we be apart (((((:

Sister, thats all i wished to say to you (((((((:

I LOVE FELICIA THUM MUN YEE :DDDDDD

&&& SILLY NOVEN SIM ((((((:

Hohohos, you assy dude.

i wont break my promises to you .

i swear :DDDDDD

&& LEONG LEWIS DUMBDUMB.

PLS DO CHEER UP LARHS (((((:

heehs, fishball will be willing to be listening ear :DDD

anything tell me okays.

sorry for kept giving you attitude too cause im shag too ))):

AWW ! SHAG DDDDDDD:

THATS ALL FOR TODAY ((:

AHLA TO THE MAX !

ANGRY*DULAN*BOMBOM*

2008-12-25T07:05:00.000-08:00

Hellos PEEPS :DDDDDD
I'm Back (((((((((:

Edited By: NOVEN SIM (((((((:

Laughs*

nice isnt it ? hahahhahahs:DDDDDD

of course its nice larhs, is my silly bodoh edited de horhs {{{{{:

heehs, so sweet of him larhs, silly assy dude !

&&& Pictures Of The Day :DDDDDDD

&&&&& Noven Sim ((((:

hahahhahahahs:DDDDDDDD

see told you your name will be in here, believe now ?

Laughs*Stupid Bodoh !

&&&& horhs, Leong Lewis Dumbo (((:

dont keep call me shorty too because you're one of them too, silly ass :DDD

Heehs, silly dumbo of mine !

Thats all :DDD

Takecares.

Ahla to the max !

angry*dulan*bombom*

2008-12-23T08:04:00.000-08:00

Hellos:DDDDDDDDDD
Pictures Of The Day !
One Word To Describe Me For The Day "SHAG" )))):

thats all :DDDDDD

takecares.

ahla to the max *

angry*dulan*bombom

2008-12-20T09:06:00.000-08:00

Hellos, i'm back (((((:

took some pictures with xiaobee jie & yvonne twinnie !!!

&&&& i know you guys & girls cant wait to see what had happened during the weekends yeahs !

laughs*

Aww, then let me tell you.

its been a hectic weekend for me again uhhs !

hais, one word to describe me now &&&&&& that is im "SHAG" !

its been a few days already hais.

I Often Ask Myself These Question............

Is it worth waiting for HIM ?

aww, my answer is YES , ITS WORTH ((:

Is it worth sacrificing so much just for HIM ?

my answer is YES, ITS WORTH SACRIFICING :DDDDDD

Is it worth listening to HIM ?

&&&& my answer is YES, ITS WORTH LISTENING ((((((:

Is he worth all these ??

&& my answer is YES ,HE'S WORTH EVERYTHING !

THAT'S ALL ((((((((((:

TAKECARES.

AHLA TO THE MAX !

ANGRY*DULAN*BOMBOM*POING OH *

2008-12-17T08:06:00.000-08:00

Hellos:DDDDDDDDD
Back to blogging !
some pictures uploaded (((((((:

Aww, I'm Shag These Few Days !

Leong Lewis Dumbo ((((((((:
thanks for everything that you had done for me :DDD
thanks for always cheering me up yeahs !
hohohohos, angry*dulan*bombom*poing oh*
Laughs* Really Thanks Alot ((((((((((((((:

Think Thats all ((((((((:

Takecares.

Ahla To The Max !

2008-12-14T05:15:00.000-08:00

Laughs ((((((:

im back again !

Sunday !

Went to Malaysia with mom & uncles today (((((:

Saturday !

Laughs*

went to bugis today as jovin sis wanted to pass me my birthday present && also yvonne wants to pass me the lighter which baby sis has given me ((((((:

heehs ! love both of them mans :DDDDDDDD

met up with xiaobee jie, babyjoy sis, sipei sis, jovin sis, nana sis, diona sis, yvonne sis (((:

really damn happy because its been a long time since i last saw them as i've been busy working !

also saw laoshu & meiling ehs.

heehs. (((((:

misses meiling kinda much !

after that about 7-8pm, mom came to fetch me ((((:

&& then went to fetch Leong Lewei dumbdumb & went to met up with nelson & the rest at Sembawang Park.

aww, Dumbdumb seems to be in a bad mood. humph ! but in the end he did cheered up && i know its because he've seen my msg ehs ! laughs* bhb de me siol. ass !

lalalalalas~

but actually im also shag de horhs ! argh.

hmmm, been trying to chang to a better person ohs ((((:

heehs, i hope everyone can see && sense it :DDDDDDDDDD

&&&&&&& iloveallmysisters{{{{{{{{:

Friday !

Xueting sister came to find me 1 of her friend while i was working ehs. heehs:DDDDDDD

I'm so happy larhs can !

i have not seen her for a long time )))))))):

but now i finally did (((((((:

SISTERS FOREVER ! ILOVEHERSO-SOMUCH !

LIAW XUETING, YOU'RE IRREPLACEABLE :DDDDDDDD

&&& waited for Leong Lewei & my mom to end their work & then headed off to Bishan there to catch prawns with nelson, sabrina, weimin && terrance ((((((: gees.

till about 2am & then HOME SWEET HOME :DDDDDDDDD

was kinda emo at that day too. aww, maybe was thinking of the past again humph !

Think thats all (((((((:

Takecares:DDDDDDDDDD

ahla to the max !

angry*dulan*bombom*

triple a battery ((((((((:

2008-12-09T07:53:00.000-08:00

My pictures are above :DDDDDDDD

heehs !

Aku ahhai steph ((((((((:

XiaoBaby Sister !

To My Baby Sister ((((((((:

hey sister:DDDDDDD

gee, im so happy that Santa Claus & God had grant my wish to let you be free.

yeahs, although now you've got probation but its better than you go in rights ?

at least now i still can get to meet you arhs !

LAUGHS*

sister, i really got to thank you for going through thich & thin with me all these while.

thank you very much, my sister.

you're irreplaceable !

Sister,

I promise to lift you up whenever you are down.

I will place a smile on your face whenever there’s a frown.

I love you unconditionally you are my very best sis.

All the pieces to your broken heart I will do my best to mend.

Lives are lost daily, I know it isn’t fair.

Just know you will always have someone that truly cares && that is me ((((:

&& Sister.

You made me laugh when I cried so hard.

You held me close when I was so cold.

You offered a comforting hand to hold.

You picked me up whenever I fell.

You showed me heaven when I was blinded by hell.

You answered my calls in the darkened night.

You gave me the reasons to hold on and fight.

You rescued me when I was drowning in pain.

You placed me back on the right path again.

You loved me forever and stayed by my side.

You entered my heart as an angel to guide.

Thanks alot sis(((((:

&&& sister ah, i seriously hope you will changed for the better le arhs && i believe you will my dear, because i do have faith in you !

Sister, whatever you do please remember your family & sisters are always with you && support you.&& when anything happens to you, its only we sisters & your family will be devasted.

do you know before your court today, how worried am i ? but i kept telling myself not to worry so much because i believe God will be willing to give you a chance to mend your ways. not everyone is PERFECT ! laughs* && god really did grant me this lil wish. im really thankful.

hey sis, there's soemthing i wish to say to you (((:

&& that is :

You always helped me with all my troubles,

and i'd do the same for you.

when i said no one cared about me,

you'd say you do.

you stopped me from hurting myself,

and ending my life.

you came to my rescue,

and put down the knife.

you told me you would be nothing if I wasn't there.
those words showed me you really cared.

but there's another secret that killing my soul,

one that made me realize you made me whole((((:

I love to listen to you talk,

as you open up to me,

expressing what your feeling,

and everything you see.

I love they way you listen,

and how i know you understand,

everything I'm mumbling,

and help me through it with your hand.

I love how you give me advice,

and tell what or not to do,

You always make me fell better,

and help me pursue.

I love the way you help me,

Whether is night or day,

your always there,

every step of the way.

I love the way you make me smile,

and make me glow with delight,

You take away my fear,
and make everything alright.

I love everything about you,

And you'll always be my Sis till the very end ((:

Thanks sister:DDDDDDDDDD

Sister, i promise you that i will meet up with you whenever im free okays:DDDDD

im missing you like hell uhhs !

laughs* sometimes thinking of the laughters we used to had in the past makes me wanna faster meet you lorhs. heehs.

iloveyousister:DDDDDDD

SILLY DUMBO SISTER ((((((:

YOU'RE MY PRECIOUS SISTER !

I Miss Them :DDDDDDD

Xiaobee, Babyjoy, Jovin, Sipei && many more (((:
sisters, i'll meet up with you girls soon !

muacks.iloveyou.

&&&& Mr Leong Lewei Dumbdumb ((((:

heehs, && im not DOUBLE A battery, im TRIPLE !

laughs*

hahahahahs (((((((:

lalalalalalalas ~

Takecares.

Thats all :DDDDDDDDD

ahla to the max.

angry*dulan*bombom !

2008-12-06T08:58:00.000-08:00

Here's Some Pictures For This Week (((((((:

Aww, its been a hectic weekend for me yeahs !

often out with Leong Lewei that group & also busy working at Mango for this week :DDDDD
He's humorous larh cans (((((((:

&&&& full of nonsense ! worst of all is taht he likes disturbing me.

aww, i seems to be so Pathetic uhhs ? Laughs*

Think thats for all :DDDDDDDDD

Takecares ((((((((((:

Ahla To The Max {{{{{:

Angry*Dulan*Bombom !

2008-11-28T23:29:00.000-08:00

HEY PEEPS ((((((((:
hahahahas, im back again:DDDDDDD

aww, im like kinda shag ?
hais, almost went up to cantolment yesterday.
due to some reasons ?
hmm, i think its better not to spell it all out ?
LAUGHS*
&&&& Dumbdumb, Thanks Alot For All The Things That You've Done For me & Helped me !
I really do appreciated it, my dearest dumbdumb(((((((:
Dumbdumb, When im in trouble, you're the one who have cheered me up, you're the one whom have cares so-so much for me.
Thanks Alot Dumbdumb, Im So-so Touched , Really :DDDDD
Hmmmmmmm, But also, Im sorry for always making you worried for me when im in trouble.
Gees, Laugh Out Loud *

Yesterday, joyce & babyhuiyee (Rachael) got slap at Fushion.
but rachael was not mostly at fault, therefore she only got 1 slap.
but joyce got 2 slap, as she loves making up stories.
trying to get everyone reputation down ? aww, its really kiddo mans !
ONE WORD TO DISCRIBE HER && THAT IS "CHILDISH".
hais, but actually see-ing her got slap, im kinda soft-hearted && im those emotional types uhhs. hais.
but there's no choice, this is her punishment so she've gotta gladly accept it.
Many people was there seeing show larhs.LAUGHS*

SHAG*

Yesterday, sipei sis, babyjoy sis &&& xiaobee jie, followed me to sindua.
after that, they all went to find Big Head at Lor 8 market ?
actually they wanted to stayed at my house but all thanks to Joyce !
Hais, she's all the cause of it.

&&&& then when im at the carpark, my dumbdumb, LEONG LEWEI called my mum as my phone battery is flat. He told me to go down woodland find him & his brothers as he wanted to have a chat with me. I at first doesnt wanna go as im really tired & not haing enough sleep. Hmmmm, but in the end i agreed to go down woodlands to find him.
Therefore, mum was preparing to start the car but that Leong Lewei told me he was playing a fool with me . He scared im shy as his there have many poeple so he says ,all just meet up on my birthday((((((((: Laughs* He's so-so cute aww.

After that, HOME SWEET HOME :DDDDDDDDDDD
Reached home, used com & went to bathe.
After that, called dumbdumb &&& finally fallen asleep !

TOMORROW IS MINE CHALET (((((((:
&&& 1ST DEC IS MY BIRTHDAY :DDDDDDDDDD '

2008-11-21T15:35:00.000-08:00

HELLOS PEOPLE :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
ITS BLOGGING TIME AGAIN YEAHS !
HAHAHAHHAHAS(((((((((:
HAD DUN WITH ALL MY SISTERS YEAHS {{{{:

met up with xiaobaby sis & nana sis && then went to MCYS for xiaobaby sis probation thing.
&&& then head off to bugis to meet all my other sisters && that is xiaobee (jie), babayjoy sis & jovin sis. also met up with my cutecute, MARILYN :DDDDDDDD

after that, i accompanied xiaobaby sis go home cause she gotta reached home by 7pm as she's having probation. &&&&& followed diona go buy food for xiaobaby. after that we chat till about 9.45pm && i headed back home (((((((((:

after that, xiaobee jie called me & said she & sipei is coming my house to ton. woots ((((: so excited mans ! hahahahahahs:DDDDDDDDDD

i fell asleep at about 3am & woke up at 5am. &&& found out that they dint even sleep a wink mans ! hohohohos, && accompanied them for breakfast at 7am && they went back home:DDDDDDDDD
so i went back home too !

I JUST SIMPLY LOVE MY SISTERS:DDDDDDDDDD
THEY'RE LIKE MY ECSTASY ((((((((((:
THEY'RE MY LOVE !

*liaw xueting, xiaobee, xiaobaby, xiaoki, babyjoy, sipei, yvonne, jovin, sherilyn, shirley...........*

BEN:
hey ben, aww. maybe we're not that close yeahs.
but heed my advice, dont be too upset over it.
there's many girls out there too uhhs.
haiyo, cheer up yeahs.
i as a friend to you, i dont wish to see you being so sad over it.
if your gf breaks with you, so let it be.
this shows that she doesnt cherish you at all.
maybe one day she will regret it && will come back to you ?
hahhahahahas ! so dont sad le yeahs.
its not really worth it yeahs.
CHEER UP OKAYS:DDDDDDDD
HAHAHAHAHAHHAS ! DONT SAD LIAOS.

2008-11-18T23:55:00.000-08:00

HEYO PEEPS :DDDDDDDDDD

wahahahahahs:X

went swimming with pearlyn (nana) &&& deborah.

gees, it was damn fun larhs :DDDDDDDDDDD

weets, aiyo ! we were like damn full of nonsense larhs can (((((((((((:

heehs !

but was also kinda like damn pissed off with those china chicks !

wtf ?!?!?!? they are like a mamasan cans ! heehs .fuck them upside down mans !no wonder deborah was damn fed-up && went to confront them.&&& stupid ass, that china chick fought with ahger.&&& i really cant tolerate it so i just kick her && wtf ? aww, i guess my leg is short ehs. heehs ! && i almost fell when i kick her. hohohohos:DDDDDDDDD

awwww, deborah hand was kinda scratched by that fucker ! so we all accompanied her to the polyclinic for bandaging.&&&& after that, pearlyn went with me to meet my mum.&&&&&&&&&&after that, home sweet home heehs:DDDDDDDDDDDD

TOOK SOME PICTURES WITH PEARLYN & AHGER (((((((((((:

2008-11-18T08:01:00.000-08:00

2008-11-17T06:55:00.000-08:00

HEY PEEPS (((((((((((:
I'M BACK FROM GENTING YEAHS !
HOHOHOS:DDDDDDD

Hmmmmmm, genting trip can say its kinda fun ohs :DDDDDDDD
hahahahahhas ! but was also kinda pissed off with that LEONG LEWEI sometimes as he kept pinches me larhs ass him .well, my mood was down at some of the time as during the night many things just came across my mind && also while having a talk with zolyn.
aww, i confess im a little insane yeahs, hahahahas , as im awhile happy and then awhile emo-ing. hohohos ! well, its alrights.&&&&&&&& my that silly dumbdumb, leong lewei also kept disturbing me as well as insulting me at the same time by saying im SHORT SHORT SHORT ! GEES, HAHAHAHAHS ((((: STUPID SILLY DUMBO.

&&& zolyn has finally passed him the poster that i've made for him, aww.
hohohos, i know he must be damn touched want ehs after seeing what i wrote (((: hahahahahas, its just that he's shy to said it out loud. aww, leong lewei, dont be shy shy larhs. heehs ! you know, i know jiu can le :DDDDDDDDDD wahahahahahahahhas:X

hmmm, just now went to sing karaoke with that leong lewei again && also some of his friends.
&&&&&&&&& he still dint changed at all alrights, still keep saying im short ! aww, its alrights. hahahahs, im used to it already. hmmmmm, &&& when at about 10.15pm, slacked with some of my brothers at my house downstairs till 10.45pm. &&& after that, followed dumbdumb instruction to call him when reaches home (((((: && so i did yeahs . aww, isnt that good of me .hahhahahahahs ! ehs, can say so thats all what i wished say in my blog ohs{{{{{:

THATS ALL:DDDDDDDDDDDD
GOOD-BYESSSSSS((((:
TAKE CARES !

2008-11-11T07:35:00.000-08:00

HELLOS PEEPS (((((((((:
IM BACK TO BLOGGING AGAIN YEAHS !

aww, day for was getting from bad to worst. really, im aint kidding !
hais, mum is getting worst alright !
&&&&&&&& i swear living with mum & dad under a same rooftop is not a good thing either,awwwww )))))))))):

i dont believe without you mum & dad, i cant survive.
i will use my ability to prove it to the both of your !
i doesnt need to take a single cents from your pockets , but i will use my ability to earn my money alrights.
wait & see.

mum, our relationship is getting from bad to worst. well, you cant blame me.
maybe both of us just cant get along well.
i just feels that you're touturing me uhhs ! awws.
i just wihs to get away all of my pain & torment right now !
hais, im really tired of all these. you are really getting more & more unreasonable.
& really please stop using your tears to gain sympathy from others alrights.
from now on, i dont even give a fucking damn care to what other's think about me.
you can make it sounds that im inhuman ! but , let me tell you straight alrights, im for who i am ! dont judge me please. i hate it mans )))))))))))))))))))):
god i wonder, if i could have a choice to choose my mum & dad, i would definitely changed to a parents with a better attitude.
hais ! im really at a loss of words currently.
my mind is just so-so BLANK !
im beginning to hate you more & more.
i doubt you will be angry with me for that long, but i believe i wont give in too easily anymore.
i confess yes, mayb last time i used to give in its all because i've got no money && wantedto take from you. now, im changed alrights !
no matter i've gotta borrow, steal or do kinda of stupids stuff to get money, its also none of your business.
now maybe i got a mum is equal to no mum at all.
seriously yeahs DDDDDDDDDDDDD:
hais, put in simple words is that you've totally CHANGED !
thats all i wish to say uhhs.
ITS ALL WORDS FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART .

AWW~
i often asked myself , am i that bad ?
if not, why it seems that no one has ever cared for me ?
why does all my closed ones kept changing uhhs ?
there's so much why crossing across my mind right now really !
hais i felt so useless yeahs. humph DDDDDDDDDD:
i know many of your might think im bad, inhuman . but, did your ever truly spare a thought for me ? no, i dont think so.
you people simply are not me, so you're dont even understands how im feeling right now !
hmmm, i think i shall just stop right here now barhs !

THATS ALL (((((((:
BYESSSSSSSSSS !